ch-ch-ch-ch-changes....
....and i hate Bowie.
y'know i fear i'm going to have to make some brutally difficult changes, changes i don't actually want to make, changes that are going to make me miserable, at least in the short term...but i'm also miserable now in certain areas so i guess i have to figure out which miserable is the better misery to go with...i do know that i can't beat my head against the wall anymore and i can't imagine any avenue or approach i haven't tried to ensure that i didn't end up in exactly the place where i am now...it's been about 2 years now and life has not stopped kicking my ass, fucking with my head and shredding what's left of my heart...the universe really needs to start cutting me some slack...soon.
y'know i fear i'm going to have to make some brutally difficult changes, changes i don't actually want to make, changes that are going to make me miserable, at least in the short term...but i'm also miserable now in certain areas so i guess i have to figure out which miserable is the better misery to go with...i do know that i can't beat my head against the wall anymore and i can't imagine any avenue or approach i haven't tried to ensure that i didn't end up in exactly the place where i am now...it's been about 2 years now and life has not stopped kicking my ass, fucking with my head and shredding what's left of my heart...the universe really needs to start cutting me some slack...soon.