the case of the dis-ta-peared DJ!
hey sorry for not returning messages or being remotely reachable the last week and a half...in my usual luck-o-leslie, 2 weeks ago i managed to tear some some ligaments in my right hand, making it useless and thumb and forefingers were in excruciating pain...and i thought that was bad until, only a few days later, i had an accident with my back resulting in the worst pain i have EVER been in for a week and a half, further complicated by my right hand issues...sadly when my back first went out, it was from shoulder blades to top of the neck, including multiple pinched nerves [meaning loads of pain and immobility on my left side mostly], a couple partially slipped discs and massive intensive spasming lasting for a day or so at first then hours at a time, not to mention all the related pain and muscle issues, no ability to turn the head, blah blah but the basic idea is one issue after the other of some of the worst pain and discomfort i've EVER been in...
of course i have other chronic health/pain issues so that just made things worse resulting in me throwing up pretty constantly for a week, insomnia for the entire time, with a lucky day being one where i can fall asleep for 2 hours sitting up supported...most days i was not that lucky...so i'm also utterly exhausted a week in to this hell...
SO when the tension starts releasing you'd think, YAY! right? yeah me too until my back went NUTS as the discs moved back in to place...the tension has to leave by the top [neck] or bottom [tailbone], traveling the same path, passing over pinched nerves, causing spasms etc. on its way out just like on its way in...yay...THEN some of it went 'down' and got caught up in my lower back resulting in MORE pinched nerves, including not one but BOTH sciatic nerves!! so now i can't even walk at times, let alone get in ANY position EVER that isn't EXTREMELY painful...i almost ended up in hospital in traction but thankfully i was able to attack the spasms etc. with a bunch of different approaches and it's just now begun to start to loosen, nerves slowly releasing....
and there's SO much more crap, all over the last week and a half...but after all this, after this CONSTANT NEVER CAN ESCAPE FOR A MOMENT EXTREME PAIN i've realized that despite my life-long chronic health and pain issues, despite my 'colourful' life growing up and getting in to some pretty hairy situations sometimes resulting in some pretty heavy injuries, despite all of that, the last week and a half has been the WORST PAIN I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE...friends who know me know that is a very big statement for me to make, and i don't make it lightly...
so please, sorry for dropping out of touch with everyone abruptly and not returning messages but it was just THAT bad...
of course i have other chronic health/pain issues so that just made things worse resulting in me throwing up pretty constantly for a week, insomnia for the entire time, with a lucky day being one where i can fall asleep for 2 hours sitting up supported...most days i was not that lucky...so i'm also utterly exhausted a week in to this hell...
SO when the tension starts releasing you'd think, YAY! right? yeah me too until my back went NUTS as the discs moved back in to place...the tension has to leave by the top [neck] or bottom [tailbone], traveling the same path, passing over pinched nerves, causing spasms etc. on its way out just like on its way in...yay...THEN some of it went 'down' and got caught up in my lower back resulting in MORE pinched nerves, including not one but BOTH sciatic nerves!! so now i can't even walk at times, let alone get in ANY position EVER that isn't EXTREMELY painful...i almost ended up in hospital in traction but thankfully i was able to attack the spasms etc. with a bunch of different approaches and it's just now begun to start to loosen, nerves slowly releasing....
and there's SO much more crap, all over the last week and a half...but after all this, after this CONSTANT NEVER CAN ESCAPE FOR A MOMENT EXTREME PAIN i've realized that despite my life-long chronic health and pain issues, despite my 'colourful' life growing up and getting in to some pretty hairy situations sometimes resulting in some pretty heavy injuries, despite all of that, the last week and a half has been the WORST PAIN I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE...friends who know me know that is a very big statement for me to make, and i don't make it lightly...
so please, sorry for dropping out of touch with everyone abruptly and not returning messages but it was just THAT bad...