Jun 06, 2006 21:49
So it's come to this: I'm going to go visit Daren in August. I'm a little nervous to tell you the truth. Just because I am now getting this feeling that Daren thinks it would be weird if it were just me. I don't want to impose, he's just like, "talk to your friends, there is plenty of time until then." Blah, blah, blah.
It's just that...well...I've been hurt so badly by guys in the past that I'm SOOO weary of them now, and I don't want it to be weird for them as well as myself, and the LAST thing I want is to be lead on AGAIN by some asshole.
Just think of this as a mountainboard trip. We're gonna go ride and we MUST go ride Hooterville so I can be the first girl ever to ride it, and I can see Ted again and he can stare at me with his deep eyes and his hat covering half his face.
I can't believe that Luna has been gone for a few weeks now. And yet I STILL break down about it. Weird, but true.
"Scars are souvenirs you never lose."--Goo Goo Dolls
What a killer quote! God, so I've been listening to this song forever. It reminds me of Luna for some reason and it puts me in the contemplative state of mind and when I heard the line, "Did you lose yourself somewhere out there? Did you get to be a star?" It just makes me think of her singing that line to me, and it makes me sad. Because it's like, she never knew where I was...I was never home, so I must be somewhere far away, right? It's weird.
Well, I think it's only fair to Daren if I tell him my background with the whole boy situation. We have a LOT of talking to do when I get out there.
Shit, I haven't been to LA in almost 2 years!! Haha. Oh Lordy, it's been too long! Haha, just kidding. But in all honesty...who WOULDN'T want a nice, cute boy to cook for them every night in LA? Yeah. And...we're going to Disneyland!!! WOO!!! HELL YEAH!!!
He goes, "I really think we could have some fun." Haha...he has NO idea.....
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