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[dirtyblondie695]

have you ever felt like ur so called best friend isnt really that?like ur only their best friend when no one else is around.if there are other people around ur justa pain in the ass. well thats how my "best friend" makes me feel. and i haev been telling her this for the past couple of days and then she has the nerve to call and bitch about me and put other people on the phone to bitch at me...then earlier today she tries to make it up to me i guess and she calls me and was like im coming over we need to talk. and guess what there was her bf sitting in the car and the entire time they were talkin about how much fun they had last nite and im just sittin in the back thinkin this is my "best friend" she calls and says we need to talk and she just talks to him the entire damn time. then we just magically show up at mcdonalds and out pops the words... julie go get me a drink... i want coke....
what a great friend huh? i guess kevin was right... i love my dad... oand i really like this kid buddy and he likes me too but he knew this girl since like 3rd grade and has liked her since and he lost touch with her like a year or two ago and then when he saw her at a friends house they started talkin again andthey went out ona date last nite and im really nervous about how it went... he has become one of my really good friends we talk all the time and i guess i just want him to be happy but i want him to be happy with me lol i know its mean i guess but there is somethin different with him i know all of this sounds cheesy but i dunno this live journal is supposed to be a way to "let my feeligns out" so there they are lol ok well im out my relatives are now coming over for xmas/ sams b day/ my bday.... oooo fun..... bye