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i feel like my break is having a lot of ups and downs. i've been able to hang out with a lot of people, which has been amazing, but i've also had my moments with others that have made me question what's even left here. i've had some down time, which has been much needed, and i've had days where i'm going 1434 mph nonstop for random reasons. i can't really complain, though, but i just feel kind of strange. empty isn't really the word, but its the first one that comes to mind.
tonight, however, i'm in a good mood. i had a good night with some of my friends, and i just feel relaxed. this is a pleasant change since i haven't felt very cheery lately even though i have every reason to be. i'm not sure what it is. maybe the gray weather has got me down. maybe i've been expecting too much out of people. but regardless, tonight i feel okay. i feel like i can let go of the stupid things that i've been holding on to. i feel like i'm picking up the pieces. it was bad before, but it's all okay now.
i've been working out a lot. its been the perfect way for me to do something good for myself and clear my head. sometimes i go twice a day, just because. there's no real need for it, but i just feel better after a long gym session. i get in these mindsets sometimes where i'm really intense about my work outs, and now i'm back at it. if everything else is weird or going wrong, at least i've got that going for me. i guess it's alright though- it's making me feel good and i'll be in really good shape for lacrosse. it's better than eating my feelings.
i can't really believe that christmas is already over. it was kind of lame, but in a good way. i spent time with the fam- i helped mom cook christmas eve dinner and it was delicious. then we opened presents, which was more entertaining than anything. its clear that my family is getting more and more dysfunctional with every year that passes. this year, my grandma got my dad the same gift that my mom got her. screw i-pods and digital cameras, apparently everyone needs a hands-free can opener...and the more the merrier. along with our new kitchen gadget, we all got the traditional grandma gifts, which are usually awkward santa statues that are unnecessary but essential parts of our christmas experience. we could probably recreate the entire nativity scene using all the statues that we've accumulated over the years. i wish i was exaggerating. anyway, after all was said and done, dad took stupid candid photos and then we all ended up going to bed early. weather-wise, christmas morning was dismal, but it was a perfect excuse to sleep in. once i made it to the family room, i spent most of the day watching food network and helping mom cook another dinner. nothing terribly exciting, but it was comforting, and that's all i could have hoped for.
besides the holidays, things have been entertaining. i went back to work at the burg, which has been demanding, but its money in my pocket. jackie has been working a lot of the same days i have, so that has made it a lot of fun because we're both really ridiculous when we're there. i took on an extra shift next week so i can get holiday pay, which will be delightful to bring back to school. i'm going to hate waking up early on new year's day, but i just have to remember i'm making more than double what i normally make. woooo!
new year's eve is kind of overrated to me. i never have big plans, but i never feel the need to MAKE big plans. my parents are having a little gathering, and i invited a few people over, so that's that. we'll eat and watch tv and just enjoy each other's company. i'm all about it.
new year's resolutions are another thing i think are kind of overrated. i absolutely hate the people that make resolutions to go to the gym more, because all they do is take up space and make it harder to find a parking spot in the morning. they don't even know how to work any of the equipment and they give up in february anyway. its harsh, but we all know its true. i really wish people would stop with the superficial nonsense. 'i wanna lose weight' 'i wanna work out more!' 'i wanna have a new image' ... blah. i think people should just be happy with themselves and not put so much pressure and expectation on a new year. just roll with it. and if you DO make resolutions, i think it should be something gradual and worthwhile. 'i want to make a difference in someone's life'. 'i want to be a better friend.' 'i want to take advantage of opportunities to try new things.' 'i want to stop letting little things get to me.' 'i want to stop getting so attached to the past.' 'i want to live in the moment.'...come to think of it, i think those are all of my resolutions for this year and years to come. let me know if i improve in any of those areas.
amanda just told me we only have like 2 weeks left until we're back at school. scary. i think i'll be ready to go back by then, though. its good to be home, but i really do love it there.
i guess that's all i have to say for now. i'll write again in '07.
$ten
tonight, however, i'm in a good mood. i had a good night with some of my friends, and i just feel relaxed. this is a pleasant change since i haven't felt very cheery lately even though i have every reason to be. i'm not sure what it is. maybe the gray weather has got me down. maybe i've been expecting too much out of people. but regardless, tonight i feel okay. i feel like i can let go of the stupid things that i've been holding on to. i feel like i'm picking up the pieces. it was bad before, but it's all okay now.
i've been working out a lot. its been the perfect way for me to do something good for myself and clear my head. sometimes i go twice a day, just because. there's no real need for it, but i just feel better after a long gym session. i get in these mindsets sometimes where i'm really intense about my work outs, and now i'm back at it. if everything else is weird or going wrong, at least i've got that going for me. i guess it's alright though- it's making me feel good and i'll be in really good shape for lacrosse. it's better than eating my feelings.
i can't really believe that christmas is already over. it was kind of lame, but in a good way. i spent time with the fam- i helped mom cook christmas eve dinner and it was delicious. then we opened presents, which was more entertaining than anything. its clear that my family is getting more and more dysfunctional with every year that passes. this year, my grandma got my dad the same gift that my mom got her. screw i-pods and digital cameras, apparently everyone needs a hands-free can opener...and the more the merrier. along with our new kitchen gadget, we all got the traditional grandma gifts, which are usually awkward santa statues that are unnecessary but essential parts of our christmas experience. we could probably recreate the entire nativity scene using all the statues that we've accumulated over the years. i wish i was exaggerating. anyway, after all was said and done, dad took stupid candid photos and then we all ended up going to bed early. weather-wise, christmas morning was dismal, but it was a perfect excuse to sleep in. once i made it to the family room, i spent most of the day watching food network and helping mom cook another dinner. nothing terribly exciting, but it was comforting, and that's all i could have hoped for.
besides the holidays, things have been entertaining. i went back to work at the burg, which has been demanding, but its money in my pocket. jackie has been working a lot of the same days i have, so that has made it a lot of fun because we're both really ridiculous when we're there. i took on an extra shift next week so i can get holiday pay, which will be delightful to bring back to school. i'm going to hate waking up early on new year's day, but i just have to remember i'm making more than double what i normally make. woooo!
new year's eve is kind of overrated to me. i never have big plans, but i never feel the need to MAKE big plans. my parents are having a little gathering, and i invited a few people over, so that's that. we'll eat and watch tv and just enjoy each other's company. i'm all about it.
new year's resolutions are another thing i think are kind of overrated. i absolutely hate the people that make resolutions to go to the gym more, because all they do is take up space and make it harder to find a parking spot in the morning. they don't even know how to work any of the equipment and they give up in february anyway. its harsh, but we all know its true. i really wish people would stop with the superficial nonsense. 'i wanna lose weight' 'i wanna work out more!' 'i wanna have a new image' ... blah. i think people should just be happy with themselves and not put so much pressure and expectation on a new year. just roll with it. and if you DO make resolutions, i think it should be something gradual and worthwhile. 'i want to make a difference in someone's life'. 'i want to be a better friend.' 'i want to take advantage of opportunities to try new things.' 'i want to stop letting little things get to me.' 'i want to stop getting so attached to the past.' 'i want to live in the moment.'...come to think of it, i think those are all of my resolutions for this year and years to come. let me know if i improve in any of those areas.
amanda just told me we only have like 2 weeks left until we're back at school. scary. i think i'll be ready to go back by then, though. its good to be home, but i really do love it there.
i guess that's all i have to say for now. i'll write again in '07.
$ten