Aug 13, 2006 10:43
((LOL, it first started off sad, and then I was like "FUCK IT!!! BURN IN HELL, CABRON!!! I MEAN... YOU FUCKING YAHOO!! XD))
Alondra Torres
"The Devil Went Down To Florida, Became My Boyfriend, And Now I'm Dumping Him."
Someday babe, you'll finally see
Everything you wanted was in me
Someday you'll be the one you hate
Because then you'll realize you're way too late
Sitting at home, alone in my bed
Crying soft tears cuz I wish you were dead
I know I deserve someone better, but I love you so
But I love myself too, so I gotta let you go
Cuz by now I know you ain't my cure
I want a guy who really knows for sure
That he likes me
That he wants me
That he loves me
That he cares for me
I'm aint asking you to ever stop your drinking
Or to ever change the way that you've been thinking
But the truth is, babe, if you don't think of me
Then why don't you just leave and let me be
Because I'mma about to say "Fuck it" and just give up
Cuz I need a man with more than a pick up truck
If you love me baby, you need to show
Because right now I feel like letting you go
Unless you likes me
Unless you want me
Unless you love me
Unless you care for me
Right now you don't show that you
That you like me
That you fucking want me
Do you even love me?
Because you don't care for me
So I don't like you
Asshole, I don't even want you
I give up on loving you
You don't deserve that I care for you
LOL, I made this out of fun, cuz I had a very angsty morning. Yesterday I went to my aunt's house, and I realized something. 100 people went... AND THAT STILL WASN'T EVEN THE WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY! GODDAAAAAYUM! Only my aunts, grandmas ((I have like... 10. Don't ask, and I won't lie to you)), aunts from the other side ((thing is, my real grandma had like... 8 daughters. (the brothers and husbands didnt show up) The other grandma had like... 15 kids that showed up. So, that's 23 aunts in total. Plus 10 grandmas)) and a few cousins came, like... 3. And a lot of old drinking buddies my dad had, but my dad was nowhere in sight. I found out his back is really bad and he has problems even leaving his bed, much more walking anywhere. I felt bad, so I'm going to go see him either this Christmas or summer. Oh ya, and the rest of the people were just friends of the family which were family in an incestuous way. LOL, kidding, well... uhm. XD It's just that the Martinez family and the Torres family were neighbors, each with almost the same amount of kids, and they all grew up together and what not. But half the family of families got married to the other family, even though we were all considered family and ... yeah. I give up trying to figure out. All I know, is that with Puerto Ricans, the first person they like, they end up with forever. LMAO. Look at all my aunts! They've all been married for at least 20 years, and they all tell me "Oh, he was my first kiss, my first date" blah blah blah, and they are all "Have you been kissed yet? Do you have a boyfriend?" And I'm like "Uhhhhhhh... ya. And no to the second." and they are like "Oh, how funny. Everyone in your family married the first person they kissed. Even your mother. But eh, I guess nowadays kissing for nothing is normal." and im like "It wasn't for nothing, I liked him." and they are like "Oh, so are you going to try to work it out for him?" and im like "No." so they go "then it was for nothing." And I got kinda depressed, cuz you know... they brought up something I was always raised by, and everyone tells me is wrong. But thing is, my family gets pregnant by the first person they kiss at 17 years of age, then they get married, and stay toegether forever and ever. It happened with all my aunts, my grannies, and everyone else I know, except my mom. She got pregnant by the first person she kissed, but didn't stay forever. Just 11 years. Which is pretty good, I think. XD Puerto Ricans don't believe in divorce, which is why many marry when they are like... 30 something. Even if they've been dating for 15 years, they don't marry until they are sure that they want to spend the rest of thier lives together. And I want to be like that. I want to fall in love once, and that's it. In other news, my aunts made me dance with everyone at the party. There was this 20 year old that kept on hitting on me, which is my aunt's husband's sister's son, which still counts as family. WHY DO MY FAMILY ALWAYS ENDED UP WITH CRUSHES ON ME?!?!!?!? And he was 20 years old! He was so happy to tell me he has a job, and works in winn dixie. he didn't care i was 3/4 his age. and I danced with him, but he sucked. Too Americanized. Didn't know how to get down and dirty. LMAO. Like, I know people may think dancing with your cousins is gross, but it's my family. It's almost natural to grind hips with them and show off your moves. Women on women, men on men, mother on son, son on grandma. Doesn't matter. We danced merengue, bachata, salsa, perreo, reggaeton, baladas, and techno but with a spanish beat that was like "El Boom. El Boom. El Boom." And I found out I look exactly like my aunt. Like, the resemblance is uncanny. Same jaw structure, same nose, same fake hair, same height. She has more boobs, though. Then again, she had a kid. And I loved the way she danced. I wish so much I could be like her. She was grinding with everyone and showing off, and like, people couldn't help but stare at her. I was like... mesmorized. I wish soooo much I could be like her. She had a kid, and is married and all, but she still parties like she's my age. And her husband wasn't there, and she was dancing with this guy. And DAAAAAAAAAAYUM. He could dance. That bastard. Bro. I want to date a guy who can dance. That's like... requirement number 1 on my list. And and... my aunt's had a thing against me not having a boyfriend. They were like "WTF?! YOU'RE NOT FAT!!" I was like "Uhm... I didn't say I was?" and they were like "I don't see any other reason why a guy wouldn't date a girl. They all are animals who will take anything." and im thinking "and that's why I should have a boyfriend?" and they were like "ay, muñeca, you're so pretty. im surprised you're not pregant." and i was like "Thanks?" cuz my mom had said "just smile. it's a compliment." my family made me take pics the whole night, and a video of me dancing to send to my dad. That's a great gift. Seeing your daughter grinding on family members. Man, I love my family. LMAO. They made me dance with everyone at the party, from 7 PM to 3 AM. My mom kept staring at me and clapping and whistling... when I dancing with my aunt. O.o. Gotta love my family. LOL. They tried to teach me perreo, but like, I'm so shy. XD They were like "It's like reggaeton... but nastier." cuz dayum. none of my friends can dance like that. they dont stay to one motion, they switch every 5 seconds. it could begin doggy style, then front to front, then the girl twirls around him, then they both twirl together... it's amazing. Next time I dance, I'm going to dance the way they do, and fucking scare the crap out of the guy. XD I'm going to be "Cheki Morena!" bitches. And uhm, oh. The whole Jose thing. Here's more of what's gone on.
He Wrote:
Well, you left me SOME KIND of comment. I don't exactly know what it was on. But I thought it was in a blog, so I left YOU a blog comment. I could have just sent you a message like...
"WASSUP, BITCH!? WHAT DA PROBLEM IZ?"
As for the Italian saying:
"When in the mouth of a wolf, may the wolf die."
I wrote:
Oh, that's sweet. Actually, from what I recall, I sent you a happy birthday message. And you know "WASSUP, BITCH!? WHAT DA PROBLEM IZ?" somewhat sounds more friendly than:
"When in the mouth of a wolf, may the wolf die."
I don't think I'm that bad. =( Besides, from what I remember, you weren't the one in my mouth... LOL. Sorry, but you gotta admit, that was pretty witty. =D Well, anyways. How was summer? & you know, anytime you want to stop talking to me, you can, so don't start that "returning the favor" crap on me. ;D If you're only writing to me because you still feel spiteful and triteful and angry and hateful and angsty and etc against me... I suggest you stop writing now. Don't even respond to this message, since the feelings aren't mutual, and as much as I'd like to be friends with you, I'm not going through Mission Impossible all over again to change your mind.
So, ya. Either you accept me as a friend, or don't write to me at all, because if your intentions were as you said they were, specifically just to "return a favor"... there has to be a reason why you got the urge to click my link, anyways. You don't just talk to someone after a year of ignoring them because they have an interesting blog that's been up there since forever and a half. So, as previously stated, if your intentions were just that, and you didn't actually want to speak to me again, then just don't write back to this. It's very simple. You read this, discard this, and bam. It's over. I wont write back if you wont write to me, so doesn't that take a burden off your chest? Don't send me a message stating your answer, since not talking to me makes it clear, if that's your decision.
So, Tata for now, or Tata forever,
Alondra
Then he wrote:
Reading all this, I'm starting to remember why we stopped talking. :P
I was about to shove that smiley face up his ASS... if that was actually possible. XD Like, I know he's kidding, but still... I know he purposely tries to piss me off, and that's what pisses me off! People who say something mean but don't mean to be mean, I laugh with, but he... he makes me want to gouge his eyes out, because although he sucks, he's not too sucky. Cuz I know I was being mean saying "Besides, from what I remember, you weren't the one in my mouth..." but he deserved it. So, I'm still going to be mean to him, but bring it down a notch since I don't want an all out war again.
Because I'm wity, sweet, cuddly, and cute? Don't answer that. XD And you are still horrible at ultimatums! >=( We are very different. I like knowing exactly what's going on, and you like hiding it! Ugh... you know, I could hate you if I wanted to. I really could. =P Anyways, how's summer?
XOXO Bitch,
Alo
And, that's my whole life in a glance. LOL. I hope to go to the mall with Titi and Dami, cuz my grandma gave me 40 bucks, which is enough to buy the pants I like. =D
And song currently stuck in my head: Linger- The Cranberries
If you, if you could return
Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade
I’m sure I’m not being rude
But it’s just your attitude
It’s tearing me apart
It’s ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you
But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn’t be so confused
And I wouldn’t feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you
And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger
And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger
I wanted to write more to fill up Dami's journal, so the next time I write, I'm putting in my porn novel I'm writing. XD Okay, romance. Same shit. XDDD