Wake me up when September ends...

[dirty_k]

Well..Sean left yesterday for Fort Knox. God, I miss him so much!!! I can't stop crying and I just mope around the house. Sometimes I even stare outside expecting to see his car in my driveway and see him walk up to my door. I would give anything to just hold him in my arms one more time, or at least be able to talk to him. Why can't it be christmas now?!?! I'm so proud of him for doing this but then again I'm so depressed and wish he was here. I keep expecting my phone to ring and it be him telling me that he's on his way home. The nights are the hardest because I'm so used to falling asleep with him next to me and now there's nothing there. I cry myself to sleep every night. God, I feel so pathetic. Today, I watched the "Wake me up when September ends" music video today (by Green Day) and I just balled. I'm so scared that he wont come home. Even though I know everything is going to be okay. Maybe I just need to get to boot camp and be in the same place he is, then I'll be a little better. I just want to be with him so much!!



My Mom and I are going to see "The Exerciosim of Emily Rose" tonight. I'm excited, at least I'll be getting out of the house..right?? Maybe I'll have some fun and for a little while be somewhat happy.

I'm sick of working out and I fucking hate army weight rules!! god damn it...i just want to sign and get the hell out of here. Hopefully I'll be gone before the end of this month so I can at least come home for Christmas. And then 52 weeks in Texas for training!! woohoo!!

Well i should get going...got shit to do...

*~*Kat*~*