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“I have decided that I am gonna go back to posting mainly about the sexual aspect of my relationship since I cant really talk about this kind of stuff in my regular journal. I have been dating someone off and on since the beginning of august. And the sex is great, its awesome, when we actually have it. When we first started seeing each other, the sex was endless. I would be leaning on the counter watching something on the computer. next thing I know my panties are around my ankles and Im being bent over with him sliding every inch of himself deep into me. Or we would be cuddled up watching movies on the tv where he would be pinching and rubbing my nipples until they couldn’t get any harder or his hands would be in my panties teasing my clit. I would orgasm so intensely so many times. We ended up taking a break for a few months.
Honestly I felt like our relationship from that point forward would be strictly platonic friendship at most. After adding a bunch of pictures on to my laptop it got me thinking about him and our dog. Being the nice person I am, I thought I would say Hi and send him well wishes. I had never thought he would text me back. Long story short, a month later I am practically living here again. His key is on my ring and my clothes are in the closet. All of those things are great and dandy in the relationship aspect of things. But the sex is… I don’t. Its not that it isn’t great, its that we rarely ever have sex now. Which I guess is also great if we are in fact going to be a serious couple again. I just don’t see how he justifies jerking it to the kink and sexandsubmission websites when I am naked in bed just aching for him to fuck me the way he used to. “
I wrote all that a few days ago, but I am just now getting around to posting it all. Since then I have taken some advice of a friend and have kinda took control over the situation. Some many know that I am not entirely turned on by extremely kinky stuff, some of my friends have gone so far as to describe me as too vanilla for their liking. Everything he looks at and jerks off to is where the guy/guys is well in control of the girl. We all know I like my man in charge. I like a little hair pulling, dirty talk, spanking, biting etc. I like feeling it the next few days.
Well my friend had told me to just rape him in his sleep…. That’s not me. So we were actually going for it, and somehow, whether it be the fact that I was so fucking horny, or I was buzzed, but I kinda gave him a handful of my hair (he didn’t get what I meant at first) and then later I whispered that he didn’t have to be so gentle with me all the time. And voila! Great sex. He did seem somewhat apprehensive about it. Then last night was great. I fell asleep in his lap while we were watching movies. He woke me up to get into to bed. We snuggled for a little bit then he sneaked his hands into my bottoms and tesed my clit. He teased me until I was shaking I wanted him in me so bad. And he gave it to me hard and deep. It felt so good that I came multiple times after he already had pulled out. Hopefully it continues to get better.
Im still waiting for us to fool around and fuck multiple times a day like we use to.