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everything seemed better. then she realized. happiness is attainable for the strong. Not my kind. My parents drug tested me, behind my back saying the tests were for my health. I have a horrible rash due to damaged nerves and chemical imbalances in my head. My "best friend" doesn't care about me. I'm in love with someone that I cant be with because I have to go back to boarding school and the long distance fucks it up. Im 18 and that means 10 in parents eyes. I have intense writers block. I failed my driving test by 1 point. I can't make my own decisions because I have no money. I have no way out until death rings my door bell which i'm assuming isn't supposed to happen for a while. I cried in front of the dmv obnoxiously. I'm a fat undecent looking human being and in the end I'm being a selfish, shallow person who isn't thankful for what she has. I have grown a lot and I cannot wait to be out of this miserable phase. Oh and to top it off, my phone broke!