We're headed for destruction.

[dirtbikepoet]

Today has proved incredibly unsuccessful to me. I must honestly say that I've almost given up on mankind on many an occasion, but tonight I think was one of the final times I'll say that. I wish that when I met someone I liked who I believe likes me back would just tell me what's going on before I dive straight into attachment to them. I wish that for once I'd be the first to know what's going on in my relationship instead of every one else I know. God, I just wish that people told me the truth more often than they told me lies or worst of all the sugar-coated truth. I think that hurts most of all, because it sounds the most like what you think it should be. They conform it to what they think that they want you to hear, and boy do they get it right. I just want to be able to trust someone with my heart and not have them throw it around unknowingly. I hate being fragile but there's not much I can really do about it, but at the same time I'd prefer that people didn't walk on eggshells around me. It's a Catch 22, really. I knew that something was wrong when I didn't hear from him at all the next day, I could just sense it. I actually knew that very night, I screwed up, I had screwed up big time and there was no way to take it all back. I wasn't even sure I wanted to take it all back, I'm still not sure I do. I feel like my hearts being ripped in half by two different people right now. They take which part they want to keep as theirs and then leave the little bit left for me to save in my body's empty shell. I don't understand why I have to be so often attracted to those who guard their feelings and emotions as if it were the iron curtain. I'm not asking for them to be open with me about it all, I just hate being left out in the cold about something that has to do with my actions and their reactions to them. Maybe I'm just not meant for a lasting relationship, maybe I'm not ready, I'm dead sure I am, maybe I'm just not good at picking out people who I'm truly compatible with. I honestly don't know, right now I feel like I don't anything. Your mixed signals have sunk this battleship.

Are you looking for an answer?
'Cause I could really use a friend tonight.
We could make this last forever.
We don't have to fear the sunlight.