SHREDSSS,

[dirtberry]

the point is --
I just CAN'T bring myself to forget.
I just CAN'T bring myself to be happy and betray a memory. I just CAN'T. so don't ask why.

the thought of moving on scares me.
the thought of liking happy, bright things again scares me.

i just CAN'T bring myself to do that.

because no matter how,
i still can't --
i still long for the past,
i still long alot of thousand different things that i know won't come back--
i just CAN'T, so don't ask why.

(I was simply sick and tired of conforming to how people perceived me as the bright, clownish one when my heart felt anything but that..So I thought  ' hey wth I don't care anymore. look at me how you want. alter your perceptions. i don't care anymore. so i've changed? fine, i did. whatever.')

and i just couldn't care.

----all that priorites, everything?

all of my moral values were thrown out of the window by then--

by the time the world collapsed.

how do you stay torn when you watch everything just fall into shreds before your eyes?

I am the prodigale, more than anything else.