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It took me years, but finally I've achieved a form of motivation.
My roommate told me a story about a 40 year black lady that goes here.. Now, many of you who go to bigger school are probably like "so?" but here, the oldest kid is a "super senior," better known as a 5th year student and is usually about 23.
The story I heard wasn't the significance of this post, but rather the idea of a middle aged woman coming here. It really sparked my interest- She apparently has 4 children, and another job somewhere, but she still works here. At first I'm like, damn, she's dumb. Why the fuck is she spending over 40,000 dollars to come here? her life is like half over, and in about 10ish years, she'll probably be retiring anyways... then it hit me. This education, her coming here, is probably a dream of hers, or at least a pathway to her dream.. She's doing it because she wants to. She's not coming here to impress people, or because she has to.. she's coming here because she wants to improve herself- her life.
My friend who played rugby with us quit recently. She was a junior, and was really good, and really sweet. I found out that she had to quit to make time for her 2nd part time job. HER SECOND PART TIME JOB. She has an on campus job and two others outside of the college. She loves rugby and had to quit. Why? So she can afford to come here. We talked with her- she was really upset, but all she had to say was something along the lines of- I'll kill myself working as long as it means I graduate from this college.
I'm nowhere near motivated like that. My grades are for shit and I'm horribly low on the totem pole. I didn't give a shit.. until this occurred to me. I really need to become passionately ambitious. I've motivated myself the whole week last week. I had 2 all nighters, and for what? to make up for shit I should have done weeks ago.
I can't wait for summer. I need rest and mindless activity, such as working. I need 2 or even 3 jobs. I don't care that I'll have limited free time- at least I won't spend money..
I want to be focused like I should be.
This summer, I plan to train for rugby when not working. I plan to read and do intelligent things. I plan to stop being a waste of life.
Most importantly, and yes, it is an official goal now:
I plan to stay sober and smoke-free the ENTIRE summer.
No more games. I was a ridiculous waste. Drinking is only bad when it starts to ruin your life.
My roommate told me a story about a 40 year black lady that goes here.. Now, many of you who go to bigger school are probably like "so?" but here, the oldest kid is a "super senior," better known as a 5th year student and is usually about 23.
The story I heard wasn't the significance of this post, but rather the idea of a middle aged woman coming here. It really sparked my interest- She apparently has 4 children, and another job somewhere, but she still works here. At first I'm like, damn, she's dumb. Why the fuck is she spending over 40,000 dollars to come here? her life is like half over, and in about 10ish years, she'll probably be retiring anyways... then it hit me. This education, her coming here, is probably a dream of hers, or at least a pathway to her dream.. She's doing it because she wants to. She's not coming here to impress people, or because she has to.. she's coming here because she wants to improve herself- her life.
My friend who played rugby with us quit recently. She was a junior, and was really good, and really sweet. I found out that she had to quit to make time for her 2nd part time job. HER SECOND PART TIME JOB. She has an on campus job and two others outside of the college. She loves rugby and had to quit. Why? So she can afford to come here. We talked with her- she was really upset, but all she had to say was something along the lines of- I'll kill myself working as long as it means I graduate from this college.
I'm nowhere near motivated like that. My grades are for shit and I'm horribly low on the totem pole. I didn't give a shit.. until this occurred to me. I really need to become passionately ambitious. I've motivated myself the whole week last week. I had 2 all nighters, and for what? to make up for shit I should have done weeks ago.
I can't wait for summer. I need rest and mindless activity, such as working. I need 2 or even 3 jobs. I don't care that I'll have limited free time- at least I won't spend money..
I want to be focused like I should be.
This summer, I plan to train for rugby when not working. I plan to read and do intelligent things. I plan to stop being a waste of life.
Most importantly, and yes, it is an official goal now:
I plan to stay sober and smoke-free the ENTIRE summer.
No more games. I was a ridiculous waste. Drinking is only bad when it starts to ruin your life.