Questions and answers
Sometimes I feel as if I don't get stuff out it's going to slowly eat around the tissue that holds my organs in place and then I'm going to be a pile of useless tissue which my liver being suffocated by my colon and my heart taking my gall bladders shit.
Things:
-I've hit my head 7 times in the last 4 weeks. Is this someones idea of a bad joke or am I suppose to take hints. My first one, the best/worst one is so bad 2 weeks later that if I touch my head in that spot or brush my hair over it I pretty much get naseous and want to ralph out my insides. I'm starting to try to take note of my thoughts when I hit it but then I don't know when it's going to happen so I just end up thinking way to much and being aware of way too much.
-My dyslexia and memory is getting out of had. I've started cross-crawls again because my eyesight, memory and dyslexia is getting crazy. So much as I feel uncomfortable talking because quite often my sentences make less sense than normal. Generally before I say a sentence of mid-sentence I realize what I'm saying is mixed up but now it's come to the point where I can't control or realize what I'm doing. It's shitfull.
-I'm going to make every effort to find out what's going on with my body within the next 2 weeks and change it. Getting ill everytime I eat didn't really slap me in the face until this weekend when I was at school and shared a hotel room with Amy. She made mention of the fact that everytime I eat I don't feel good and then a while later become ill. I mean, I knew it was happening but didn't really have it thrown back to me until she said it. I forget it because I feel I've tried everything to change my body systems, cleansing, balancing...I've decided I'm giving Dave a call tomorrow and he's going to do a medical intune. As I wrote this I realized that maybe too me this feels like when I had my virus in my Pancreas....pain after eating and inability to digest anything. The strangest thing about this all is the weight that I'm GAINING while be unable to digest. Fuck body, I'll feed you again, get over it.
- I have to decide within my job soon. It's draining me and I'm scared shitless to leave it even though I feel like I don't want to be there when I am there. I need 3 months free in my life to finish school. I was actually thinking of moving back home for 3 months until after my finals and then deciding what path to walk. Then I realized if I was with my mom I wouldn't get any school studying done because she would have me doing shit for her. I'm investigating further my non-existant options.
FEAR of FAILURE needs to go fuck itself.
Things:
-I've hit my head 7 times in the last 4 weeks. Is this someones idea of a bad joke or am I suppose to take hints. My first one, the best/worst one is so bad 2 weeks later that if I touch my head in that spot or brush my hair over it I pretty much get naseous and want to ralph out my insides. I'm starting to try to take note of my thoughts when I hit it but then I don't know when it's going to happen so I just end up thinking way to much and being aware of way too much.
-My dyslexia and memory is getting out of had. I've started cross-crawls again because my eyesight, memory and dyslexia is getting crazy. So much as I feel uncomfortable talking because quite often my sentences make less sense than normal. Generally before I say a sentence of mid-sentence I realize what I'm saying is mixed up but now it's come to the point where I can't control or realize what I'm doing. It's shitfull.
-I'm going to make every effort to find out what's going on with my body within the next 2 weeks and change it. Getting ill everytime I eat didn't really slap me in the face until this weekend when I was at school and shared a hotel room with Amy. She made mention of the fact that everytime I eat I don't feel good and then a while later become ill. I mean, I knew it was happening but didn't really have it thrown back to me until she said it. I forget it because I feel I've tried everything to change my body systems, cleansing, balancing...I've decided I'm giving Dave a call tomorrow and he's going to do a medical intune. As I wrote this I realized that maybe too me this feels like when I had my virus in my Pancreas....pain after eating and inability to digest anything. The strangest thing about this all is the weight that I'm GAINING while be unable to digest. Fuck body, I'll feed you again, get over it.
- I have to decide within my job soon. It's draining me and I'm scared shitless to leave it even though I feel like I don't want to be there when I am there. I need 3 months free in my life to finish school. I was actually thinking of moving back home for 3 months until after my finals and then deciding what path to walk. Then I realized if I was with my mom I wouldn't get any school studying done because she would have me doing shit for her. I'm investigating further my non-existant options.
FEAR of FAILURE needs to go fuck itself.