fuckin pissed.
I watched my fav movie today: Pirates of the Caribbean.
Ash & I came here & tanned. I got really dark. We swam,hottubed,went to 7-11,played softball,& swam & hottubed again. It was nice out today.
Im really close to getting rid of LJ. Im sick of it & it's drama. I'll probably make it friends only. Got a good reason for me to keep this dramafied disease? Post it. Id like to know.
Okay. So! I hate who i am. Are you happy? Its normally not me to give in to stupid things like this. But i did. I dont like who i am. Sorry if you disagree. Most of you wont. Shit happens. Im doing a lot of things wrong. Im completley aware. Ive noticed that Ive been failing to satisfy people lately. And its not just one person, its like 4 or 5. Plus im going through a super hard time right now with my uncle and my feelings twards that issue is just making me think negative about myself and others. Horrible, i know. DONT remind me. And another thing, I dont appreciate you trying to tell me what you hear, what you think should happen, how i should do this, how i shouldnt do that or whatever you have to say to me. Or posting my faults in my journal trying to make me look like a fool, for that matter. If you have a problem or if im doing something you dont like. IM me: a m a n d a x046. Id much rather have you do that than post in my journal trying to make me look stupid, or whatever you want to accomplish. I have enough drama in my life right now and i dont need you adding on more. Because what you have to say and your opinions on me will cause other people to post their opinions which would cause even more drama. Although....I can handle the truth. But, I dont need other people feeling sorry for me. Im independant. Which is one of my stronger qualities. But then again, its one of my weaknesses. Ugh. Im so scared. I bet none of this makes sense. I honestly dont care.
Id be appreciated if you didnt comment on this entry. Unless you have something to add or something. Dont comment if you are just going to apologize or tell me that its all going to get better. I dont need your sympathy. It sounds bitchy but that wasnt the intention.