Am I there yet?
So it has been a good summer. I cannot complain. Cabaret has been over for about a week. I do miss hanging out with the people, and every now and then I miss the performing. The dance numbers were aweseome but the whole show in general was just very tiring. But of course I still get to see my bitches all the time. For now anyway. I am heling out backstage for Little Shop of Horrors. It is definitely different being backstage than onstage.
I am having many feelings right now. They are not all bad really. Maybe just one. I dont know lol I am just well I dont know what word to use. Reflective lately for sure. All I think about is all of the good times that I have had within the past years since I have left high school. The ones I can rememember anyway. I get a little sad wishing that I could go back and exeprience them (Have I mentioned that I have an issue with letting go of things) but I know it is pointless to wish that. It is not where you have been, it is where you are going, and I fully intend togo places. I feel more driven right now than I ever have in my life and it feels good. I feel like i am going to bust open like a firework once I am out of this town. I am so exctied to grow and become ME. Sure, I get nervous at the fact that I am going to be without my family and friends for awhile. But at the same time I am so excited to go out there and make new friends.( but you KNOW that I LOVE all of the ones that I have ). I just feel that it is definitely time for a change and my intuition is telling me that this is going to be a great and productive thing. (and maybe along the way meet someone that i will fall for) Who said that ::looks around the room for mysterious voice:: Who needs boys hehe Well it is time to go eat. I am hunry and have not eaten earlier than 10 since May lol I think it is time.
I am having many feelings right now. They are not all bad really. Maybe just one. I dont know lol I am just well I dont know what word to use. Reflective lately for sure. All I think about is all of the good times that I have had within the past years since I have left high school. The ones I can rememember anyway. I get a little sad wishing that I could go back and exeprience them (Have I mentioned that I have an issue with letting go of things) but I know it is pointless to wish that. It is not where you have been, it is where you are going, and I fully intend togo places. I feel more driven right now than I ever have in my life and it feels good. I feel like i am going to bust open like a firework once I am out of this town. I am so exctied to grow and become ME. Sure, I get nervous at the fact that I am going to be without my family and friends for awhile. But at the same time I am so excited to go out there and make new friends.( but you KNOW that I LOVE all of the ones that I have ). I just feel that it is definitely time for a change and my intuition is telling me that this is going to be a great and productive thing. (and maybe along the way meet someone that i will fall for) Who said that ::looks around the room for mysterious voice:: Who needs boys hehe Well it is time to go eat. I am hunry and have not eaten earlier than 10 since May lol I think it is time.