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[dirrtycore]

Well It is about 2pm and I just woke up about an hour ago. It has been ages since I have slept this late in the afternoon. Annie, Jackie, and I went out to Montreal last night clubbing. I had a great time and it was definitely long over due. We went to Unity (of course). It was hotter than hell in there and u could literally ring out my shirt after

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Oh, you sweet beautiful human!

[elle4truvy]

OMG! Something told me to come in and catch up on my friends and I'm so glad I did! First of all, you are a major hottie! I know this doesn't mean much, but I would spank you into a wall if this were Montreal ... and I were a guy ... and gay ... and dancing in a nightclub! So yeah - they're assholes for not seeing how hot you are. And I'm sorry, but my theory is that people assume you're taken because you are such a hottie. That does happen, ya know. Not to me, but to seriously awesome hot people. I wonder if that's what's happening. So don't worry about that! When I saw you in your car the other day (always travelling in parallel worlds and never meeting, we are!) I thought you looked thin and and oh so sexy. And I only saw from the shoulders up. ::pees in car::

As for the cheating thing ... I get right where you are coming from there. It can really run your self-etseem into the ground and I know that first-hand. But if you can keep trying to remind yourself that it is a flaw in the cheater and not in the cheated on, sometimes it helps. It's one of the worst cases of wanting to have your cake and eat it too. Literally. Wait, what? Is there cake here? Sorry - brain lapse! Anyway, I've learned that being cheated on has helped me get over BK much quicker than I probably would have, even though I couldn't stand him by the end anyway, and even though I still go through periods of feeling terribly hurt and betrayed. But you have to keep your heart open and know that not everyone will do that to you. When you open yourself to love you open yourself to vulnerability, and that certainly makes you a target of anyone who has the capacity to hurt you. But seriously, you have no idea what Life is bringing to you! Wait till you leave this hole in the world and meet people, really meet whole large groups of people who not only accpet your individuality but who encourage and embrace it and enhance it! I know you get that at ETC, and I can just imagine that out in the real world it could be ETC x 100!!

ok - I hope you are feeling better today. On the positive end, yayyyyy for dancing in Montreal! Love that! I can't wait to see what's happening with *Cabaret* and told Dary I want to come see a rehearsal. I am going to try to come to one this week. Let me know when there's a big group rehearsal going on!

Love you!! And never stop dancing!!