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Haven't updated in a few days. I appologize. And I always want to superbly appologize to the following people: Brit, Senor, Josh, Alecia and Mandy. I'm really sorry ya'll had to see my other side. I hate bein' such a bitch to you guys, you guys don't deserve it, therefore - this is my appology to you all. If you don't want to accept it, I wouldn't blame you. *shrug* I'm just lettin' a few certain people get to me, and it's overwhelmin' me.
Havin' all this junk with court doesn't help. It aint much right now, but it just builds up. I had a majorly needed talk with one of my producers yesterday. I feel as if my own Mom was betrayin' me. She doesn't want me to go to court, I know that. She has told me several times, but why wouldn't she want me to? Honestly, I'm going to be 22 soon. I'm an adult now, I can think for myself. And I have been waitin' years and years to finally go to court and fight about my Dad and be treated like an adult. Not, LIL' Christina Maria Aguilera who has to have 500 people behind her to make a point. I think that if I went into court anyday now, and got the chance to get my point across, that I could do a very good job by myself. Don't get me wrong, I am nervous as ALL hell. Maybe that's why I've had trouble sleepin' lately. It's just, wow I wanna get it over with so he'll stop.
Onto other subjects. The BMA's rocked. Hung out with Brit for a bit, and got yelled at by security cuz us hangin' out together wasn't a good media thing. *shrug* Oh shut up. We're best friends, and everyone should know it. I also got to hang out with Senor, before and after his performance. Mad props, hun! *grins* That was one awesome show. Saw Josh. He got to get up on stage with Nelly. *fake pouts* Ha. :)
Jonathon and Stevie are gone. Back to Memphis... *pause* It's gettin' to me pretty, bad. I don't know why. It's not like I'm their sister or anything... *shrug* I don't know, just love my lil rugrats to death.
Havin' all this junk with court doesn't help. It aint much right now, but it just builds up. I had a majorly needed talk with one of my producers yesterday. I feel as if my own Mom was betrayin' me. She doesn't want me to go to court, I know that. She has told me several times, but why wouldn't she want me to? Honestly, I'm going to be 22 soon. I'm an adult now, I can think for myself. And I have been waitin' years and years to finally go to court and fight about my Dad and be treated like an adult. Not, LIL' Christina Maria Aguilera who has to have 500 people behind her to make a point. I think that if I went into court anyday now, and got the chance to get my point across, that I could do a very good job by myself. Don't get me wrong, I am nervous as ALL hell. Maybe that's why I've had trouble sleepin' lately. It's just, wow I wanna get it over with so he'll stop.
Onto other subjects. The BMA's rocked. Hung out with Brit for a bit, and got yelled at by security cuz us hangin' out together wasn't a good media thing. *shrug* Oh shut up. We're best friends, and everyone should know it. I also got to hang out with Senor, before and after his performance. Mad props, hun! *grins* That was one awesome show. Saw Josh. He got to get up on stage with Nelly. *fake pouts* Ha. :)
Jonathon and Stevie are gone. Back to Memphis... *pause* It's gettin' to me pretty, bad. I don't know why. It's not like I'm their sister or anything... *shrug* I don't know, just love my lil rugrats to death.