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So I now have about 10 modeling jobs set up. Money in the bank, folks. Good shit.
Taylor did not call me yesterday, as he said he would. Big fucking surprise.
So I've meditated/prayed on this whole thing, and the best thing I can come up with is to turn the other cheek again. For all of you out there who aren't Christian, sorry, but that's what the Bible teaches. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. And even if I had fucked up and I didn't deserve forgiveness, I'd want it. So that's where I'm going with this. I'll keep forgiving, and I'll keep loving, but I know that the Bible doesn't teach that you have to be "in love;" just to love. And no matter how much it hurts me, I figure it's part of the plan and that Taylor does actually need me. He doesn't have a whole lot of other stable options in his life, and just leaving him would be unfair and inconsiderate and hurtful. Yeah, I'll probably end up hurting more than ever, but I keep trying to figure out how I can be more Christian in my actions, and I think that this is a step in the right direction.
Thoughts?
Taylor did not call me yesterday, as he said he would. Big fucking surprise.
So I've meditated/prayed on this whole thing, and the best thing I can come up with is to turn the other cheek again. For all of you out there who aren't Christian, sorry, but that's what the Bible teaches. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. And even if I had fucked up and I didn't deserve forgiveness, I'd want it. So that's where I'm going with this. I'll keep forgiving, and I'll keep loving, but I know that the Bible doesn't teach that you have to be "in love;" just to love. And no matter how much it hurts me, I figure it's part of the plan and that Taylor does actually need me. He doesn't have a whole lot of other stable options in his life, and just leaving him would be unfair and inconsiderate and hurtful. Yeah, I'll probably end up hurting more than ever, but I keep trying to figure out how I can be more Christian in my actions, and I think that this is a step in the right direction.
Thoughts?