"When you were Young"
First things first...HOUSE IS ON TONIGHT!!!! and BONES!!!!...and NCIS...which is going to prove to be tricky...but I think Bones>NCIS...
but anyways...apperently when it rains it pours...
so...I've already emo-ed about my bf breaking up with me...I think...if not I shall spare...but it was my close friends reactions that confused me...ok...so they're in Maine...but there is this thing call the internet or phone?!?...so one of them is blissfully dating someone with full intentions of marrying it...good for her...but not everyone is quite so happy with the world...she told me to get over it and bugger off... . . . ...ok...so the other one...had been dealing with my axiety before we broke up and she left for vacation...so I called her cell and left a message...figuring that she probably wouldn't get it until she got back...yeah...ummm...she was visiting her bf in Vermont when I ended up recalling her...???... OK I realize that people change after leaving school...but if one of my old friends called me up to tell me that they had broken up with their bf...I would exactly do what either of these two did...but whatever...
so Nathan and I are still rather close friends which is good...'cause he's looking like the only one I have right now...(clarification...not only friend...only close friend...yes there are ranks...I like to organize things)...
but yeah...from Augus-April of last school year I logged 250+ hrs of community service...it almost killed me...but I did it damn it...my goal was to get the President's Volunteer Service Award...but VTC didn't register themselves as a certifying organization when I first notified them of what I was doing in September...so after a whole summer of battleing this out with them, the PVSA people, and our congressmen...we thought we got it under control...so yesterday I checked in with VTC...'cause I'm just kinda like leaving the state on sunday...and wanted to get this taken care of before I left...nothing big or anything (sarcasm)...and I get this nice little letter back from VTC saying they can't process it...because I didn't give them enough notification...WHAT???...sputter sputter...include some angry drafting on AutoCAD and you've got my afternoon...but I talked with Nathan at like 3 in the morning when he got back and I was still awake seething...so I have a plan of what I am going to try to do...but I'm going to be working on this from school in Arizona...urg...
everything just seems like an uphill battle...from getting into college, to scholarships...or lack there of, getting a job, and this...it just seems like I'm continually beating my head against a brick wall...and I'm getting tired of it...
its frustrating...'cause people are like...well your going to an amazing school...but I'm not exactly sure if this is what I want to do...which makes me feel worse...'cause only a handful of people have this once in a life time oprotunity...and I don't feel that I'm appreciating it...I'm sure once I get out there...it'll all be fine...but from my nice cozy little office its doesn't seem that way...
I just have to take one step at a time and finish packing and write to Sanders to see what his nice office people suggest that I do now...sigh...I'll just pick myself up again and grin and bare it...
meh...
but anyways...apperently when it rains it pours...
so...I've already emo-ed about my bf breaking up with me...I think...if not I shall spare...but it was my close friends reactions that confused me...ok...so they're in Maine...but there is this thing call the internet or phone?!?...so one of them is blissfully dating someone with full intentions of marrying it...good for her...but not everyone is quite so happy with the world...she told me to get over it and bugger off... . . . ...ok...so the other one...had been dealing with my axiety before we broke up and she left for vacation...so I called her cell and left a message...figuring that she probably wouldn't get it until she got back...yeah...ummm...she was visiting her bf in Vermont when I ended up recalling her...???... OK I realize that people change after leaving school...but if one of my old friends called me up to tell me that they had broken up with their bf...I would exactly do what either of these two did...but whatever...
so Nathan and I are still rather close friends which is good...'cause he's looking like the only one I have right now...(clarification...not only friend...only close friend...yes there are ranks...I like to organize things)...
but yeah...from Augus-April of last school year I logged 250+ hrs of community service...it almost killed me...but I did it damn it...my goal was to get the President's Volunteer Service Award...but VTC didn't register themselves as a certifying organization when I first notified them of what I was doing in September...so after a whole summer of battleing this out with them, the PVSA people, and our congressmen...we thought we got it under control...so yesterday I checked in with VTC...'cause I'm just kinda like leaving the state on sunday...and wanted to get this taken care of before I left...nothing big or anything (sarcasm)...and I get this nice little letter back from VTC saying they can't process it...because I didn't give them enough notification...WHAT???...sputter sputter...include some angry drafting on AutoCAD and you've got my afternoon...but I talked with Nathan at like 3 in the morning when he got back and I was still awake seething...so I have a plan of what I am going to try to do...but I'm going to be working on this from school in Arizona...urg...
everything just seems like an uphill battle...from getting into college, to scholarships...or lack there of, getting a job, and this...it just seems like I'm continually beating my head against a brick wall...and I'm getting tired of it...
its frustrating...'cause people are like...well your going to an amazing school...but I'm not exactly sure if this is what I want to do...which makes me feel worse...'cause only a handful of people have this once in a life time oprotunity...and I don't feel that I'm appreciating it...I'm sure once I get out there...it'll all be fine...but from my nice cozy little office its doesn't seem that way...
I just have to take one step at a time and finish packing and write to Sanders to see what his nice office people suggest that I do now...sigh...I'll just pick myself up again and grin and bare it...
meh...