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I'm really homesick. Its amazing how much moving 45 minutes from home can rip your emotional stability to shreds. I haven't been doing so well on that front for almost a year now, but not on the level of crying everyday at the drop of a hat.
I was looking forward to moving to a bigger city. I was really looking forward to moving to Seattle. I guess its better that I make this small step before making a larger step like moving to a different side of the nation. I think I almost would have been better off making that big step - it would have been an adventure, with something new to explore at every turn. This is just uncomfortable. And lonely. A lot of my friends live in KC, but they're not the "hanging out" kind.
I'm hoping a new apartment makes a change. Right now I'm in limbo, staying at an apartment that's not really mine. I have no sense of space or ownership. Ben and I are looking around tomorrow at the few apartments that are open for viewing on Sundays. The apartment MUST be pet friendly. It would be HELPFUL to have a personal washer/dryer because I plan on selling on eBay again. Its got to be decently priced. And it would be fabulous to have it closer to work. There's one just a few blocks from work that seems okay, but it would be Wed before we get to both look at it.
I really miss my kitties. I really miss my dog. I really miss my parents. I miss my room. I miss my stuff. I miss school. I miss Lawrence. I miss home.
I was looking forward to moving to a bigger city. I was really looking forward to moving to Seattle. I guess its better that I make this small step before making a larger step like moving to a different side of the nation. I think I almost would have been better off making that big step - it would have been an adventure, with something new to explore at every turn. This is just uncomfortable. And lonely. A lot of my friends live in KC, but they're not the "hanging out" kind.
I'm hoping a new apartment makes a change. Right now I'm in limbo, staying at an apartment that's not really mine. I have no sense of space or ownership. Ben and I are looking around tomorrow at the few apartments that are open for viewing on Sundays. The apartment MUST be pet friendly. It would be HELPFUL to have a personal washer/dryer because I plan on selling on eBay again. Its got to be decently priced. And it would be fabulous to have it closer to work. There's one just a few blocks from work that seems okay, but it would be Wed before we get to both look at it.
I really miss my kitties. I really miss my dog. I really miss my parents. I miss my room. I miss my stuff. I miss school. I miss Lawrence. I miss home.