The Balance Point

[dire_werebunny]

Too much time to think. I just came to a realization last night. Balance strikes yet again. While I am good at nearly everything that I do, I am horrible at everything I try to be. I try to be the good friend, yet I never find myself in their company. I try to be the hero, but the ones I try to save are still destroyed. I want to be the perfect

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[bloody_bugger]

Chris, the reason behind your unhapiness is not neccessarily yourself. It can be blamed on those around you. But also on you. You say you try to be a true friend but you never find yourself in their company? You have just made a liar of yourself. That statement falsifies itself. A true friend does not judge. A true friend forgives. A true friend accepts people for who they are and loves them for it. For example, Shana loves to start drama and fights and repeat everything anyone says. But if Shana runs her mouth or starts something that fucks up something in my life, like a relationship or something...do I hate her for betraying my trust? Do I get angry at her for wanting to cause strife? No, I accept her for the way she is. That is what you must learn to do. I am a friend to everyone around me...if anyone ever needs me, they can just call and they know that. Even you know that, Chris. You may hate me and judge me and tell me how horrible I am, but you know if you were going through a hard time in you life and needed someone to talk to you could call me. If you needed someone to drink a cup of coffee and wallow in misery with, you could call me. As could everyone else. Don't expect everyone to be perfect. Accept your friends for the humans they are. I would rather a friend try to break me and Cherrish up or start drama about me than deem me unworthy of their almighty attention. Your only flaw is that you are too judgemental, Chris. But all your friends forgive you for it and still love you. Maybe you should learn to accept eveyone elses flaws.

[bloody_bugger]

Oh, one other thing. You won't be able to accept the failings of those around you until you accept your own. You can never forgive anyone for not being perfect until you can forgive yourself. And no one is the perfect companion. Everyone has their down days when they don't want to see anyone, not even their significant other. Everyone at least once thinks about being with someone else. Everyone does something their significan other wouldn't approve of at least once. Chris, I know that we both hate humanity and the failings of being human. But we have to accept them. When you look at someone, especially your significant other, don't think about the pain you have caused each other in the past. Think about the happiness you can bring to their lives, and they to yours, in the future. That is all. I hope some of this helps. Remeber I'm here if anyone needs a friend. I love each and every one of you.

-Stan