blinkandmissit got me a two-ended dildo and a harness as a surprise, and they arrived today! I thought about it all day at work, and the moment I got home, I tried out my new strap on cock.
It's silicone (way nicer to touch than my old plastic flower patterned vibrator, which doesn't even have a real penis-head shape on the end). Having this new one inside (the big end I mean) and having it rammed into me hard, feels, well, a lot like being fucked (except without having someone on top of me, which is half the fun). The smaller end isn't as good, but still better than the old dildo.
But just wearing it, having it sort of sway as I walk, stroking it, seeing it stick out from my body as if it was part of me (albeit a very oddly colored part of me) is one of the coolest things ever. Man, the number of years I've thought about having a cock. And when I stroke it, or grind against something, or just walk around, I feel the other end moving inside me, so there's a real connection between stroking my cock and feeling erotic sensations. I can't really explain how great that is.
After some hesitation, Blinkandmissit decided we could screw, with me on top. We had some trouble finding an appropriate position, and I couldn't get in at first. But eventually there was a sort of pop, and it slid the rest of the way in easily. And there it was. I was fucking someone. Rocking back and forth, slowly at first, into another person, watching my cock disappear inside. And when Blink said "faster" and grunted and squirmed and clung hard to a pillow, I really felt like we'd switched places. I was giving that kind of pleasure for once, from inside the other person's body. It was fantastic.
It was tiring, being on top, and I couldn't keep up a good rhythm for long, so we fucked in the usual way. After being rammed with the dildo a few times, being frigged a few times, squeezing down hard while doing the fucking, and then getting fucked, I must have cum a total of at least ten times. And then I wore the harness while playing on the internet. Not all that comfortable sitting down, but kinky to idly stroke and fondle. It's sticking straight up from under my schoolgirl skirt as I type this.
Expect a lot on this subject in the future. I will never get tired of this.