The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
Good: SLOWEY CALLED! 9 more days, friends! It was the best! We got to talk for a pretty long time and I have been kind of upset lately about us and I just because as much as I love letters, waiting sucks. He's doing so well and he should be officially a sailor about this time next week. I still don't know what to make of the whole big picture, but I am proud of him. I am sending him one last letter today and then NEXT WEEK GUYS! NEXT WEEK! I will get to see him! Cannot wait! I have not had a really good hug in such a long time, among other things. I am nervous about the flight, but I am excited about the weekend overall. I am also excited because supposedly, this is about to get a bit easier. Thank God. Ah! Just excited!
I leave town tomorrow night late for my Wild Georgian Adventure with the ladies. For some reason I am also nervous about THIS trip. The drive, I mean. But it is going to be so much fun. I cannot wait to go rafting again! I haven't been in so long and this is going to be awesome. I do worry about our guide though. I hope he can handle it. I need to make my shirt today to sport the work logo while on horseback. I also need to make the CDs so that we've got some rad tunes. I've got it all sitting in the computer. I just need to put it on disc.
Bad: I have been feeling extremely anxious over the last few days and I am not sure why. But it is to the point of seriously wigging me out and I hate it. It is rare that I ever get moments like this, but they always occur at around the same time of the day (night) and I'm always by myself or at least awake by myself. Slowey used to help me out with this but I don't think he ever really knew that's what he was doing. I think that it's just determining what it is that's causing me to feel so horrible that makes it a problem because the past few days when it's been happening I have not been able to figure out exactly why and therefore it's hard to STOP feeling that way because I go through everything in my head that could possibly give me an answer. I think it could be because of everything that is going on right now. It's SO busy! Vacations, birthdays, graduations, new schools, the list is really neverending. I just hope I'm over it by saaaaay tomorrow.
Ugly: My TV (SLOWEY'S tv) finally broke for good, I think. It's at least 10 or 15 years old so I cannot say that it hasn't lead a good life but I am very upset that it chose to die now when I don't know that I can really afford a new one. I am very sad because this means falling asleep in silence. I'm not sure if you are aware, but this is a very difficult task to achieve.
I leave town tomorrow night late for my Wild Georgian Adventure with the ladies. For some reason I am also nervous about THIS trip. The drive, I mean. But it is going to be so much fun. I cannot wait to go rafting again! I haven't been in so long and this is going to be awesome. I do worry about our guide though. I hope he can handle it. I need to make my shirt today to sport the work logo while on horseback. I also need to make the CDs so that we've got some rad tunes. I've got it all sitting in the computer. I just need to put it on disc.
Bad: I have been feeling extremely anxious over the last few days and I am not sure why. But it is to the point of seriously wigging me out and I hate it. It is rare that I ever get moments like this, but they always occur at around the same time of the day (night) and I'm always by myself or at least awake by myself. Slowey used to help me out with this but I don't think he ever really knew that's what he was doing. I think that it's just determining what it is that's causing me to feel so horrible that makes it a problem because the past few days when it's been happening I have not been able to figure out exactly why and therefore it's hard to STOP feeling that way because I go through everything in my head that could possibly give me an answer. I think it could be because of everything that is going on right now. It's SO busy! Vacations, birthdays, graduations, new schools, the list is really neverending. I just hope I'm over it by saaaaay tomorrow.
Ugly: My TV (SLOWEY'S tv) finally broke for good, I think. It's at least 10 or 15 years old so I cannot say that it hasn't lead a good life but I am very upset that it chose to die now when I don't know that I can really afford a new one. I am very sad because this means falling asleep in silence. I'm not sure if you are aware, but this is a very difficult task to achieve.