first entry...thanx
this is my first entry. i found this journal thingy frum my friend who uses it, it seems like a nice way 2 get out yur feelings and get help frum other people, sumthin i seem 2 need lately.
i jsut want 2 thank u ahead of time for every1 who reads this and gives me advice, u don't understand how much it means 2 me.
lately i have seem 2 get on the rong side of some of the most closest people 2 me. for example, one of my friends who i have considered my best friend through out the past 5 yrs thinks i talk about her behind her back and lie 2 her and all this shit. if she would only sit down and listen 2 understand that she means more 2 me than nething and i would never, but she won't
also, there is sum1 who is one of my closest friends who i seem 2 have feelings for. he feels he gets treated like shit by me. i don't understand it, but he wont talk 2 me. a few of my friends and i feel that there has 2 be other problems behind it and he decided that i wuz the last straw and he exploded. if only he understood how much he means 2 me and how much this hurts......2 no that it hurts me 2 hurt him :(:(
there's also a close friend of mine who has seemed 2 fallen 4 me. he thinks that i lead him on, so now he is mad. i don't lead him on, i honestly don't no how 2! so he got mad cuz he thought he had a chance when he didn't....so now i have 3 friends not on my side, i'd cry 2 u now, but i've cried so much, i ran outta tears!
i jsut want 2 thank u ahead of time for every1 who reads this and gives me advice, u don't understand how much it means 2 me.
lately i have seem 2 get on the rong side of some of the most closest people 2 me. for example, one of my friends who i have considered my best friend through out the past 5 yrs thinks i talk about her behind her back and lie 2 her and all this shit. if she would only sit down and listen 2 understand that she means more 2 me than nething and i would never, but she won't
also, there is sum1 who is one of my closest friends who i seem 2 have feelings for. he feels he gets treated like shit by me. i don't understand it, but he wont talk 2 me. a few of my friends and i feel that there has 2 be other problems behind it and he decided that i wuz the last straw and he exploded. if only he understood how much he means 2 me and how much this hurts......2 no that it hurts me 2 hurt him :(:(
there's also a close friend of mine who has seemed 2 fallen 4 me. he thinks that i lead him on, so now he is mad. i don't lead him on, i honestly don't no how 2! so he got mad cuz he thought he had a chance when he didn't....so now i have 3 friends not on my side, i'd cry 2 u now, but i've cried so much, i ran outta tears!