im back in cville
okay so ive been back in catonsville for like a week. its been lots of fun. i went down to the ocean and damn did i have a fucking blast. GOD I LOVE ALLL OF MY FRIENDS. haha last time i went to cville it was fucking beat. but this time it was lots of fun. guess it depends who ur with. hehe.
i miss everyone in westminster soo much. god i wish my car would finish soon so i can see them. but yerp my car will be done soon and bam bam lets party. haha.
so ne ways the first day i was back i didnt do ne thing but blah sit around and be bored. the second day i hung with justin a lil bit. then we went to brians and then we walked up the gas station and say i saw josh. fun fun. urm from there i went home and hung out with my sister. then the next day i had to work. god i hate my job its a bitch.
on the other hand- i have been shut down in my time here. i have been put in a cage of blind love. i want so badly to be able to talk to him and tell him how i feel. he has shut me out of his life forever and closed the door. somehow i feel its my fault. he did at one time promise me the would always be my friend and stand there by my side. but nope. a promising love that all got thrown away because of him changing into someone scary. someone im afraid to look at and talk to. most afraid to confide in. i dont think he understands how much i need him to get through my life.
i miss everyone in westminster soo much. god i wish my car would finish soon so i can see them. but yerp my car will be done soon and bam bam lets party. haha.
so ne ways the first day i was back i didnt do ne thing but blah sit around and be bored. the second day i hung with justin a lil bit. then we went to brians and then we walked up the gas station and say i saw josh. fun fun. urm from there i went home and hung out with my sister. then the next day i had to work. god i hate my job its a bitch.
on the other hand- i have been shut down in my time here. i have been put in a cage of blind love. i want so badly to be able to talk to him and tell him how i feel. he has shut me out of his life forever and closed the door. somehow i feel its my fault. he did at one time promise me the would always be my friend and stand there by my side. but nope. a promising love that all got thrown away because of him changing into someone scary. someone im afraid to look at and talk to. most afraid to confide in. i dont think he understands how much i need him to get through my life.