To whom it may concern:
I don't think I have anything left to say that I haven't already said. I'm through wasting my time arguing when I know I won't get my point through. I'm finished with speaking my beliefs and thoughts because either my points aren't strong enough or, moreso, no one wants to listen. I don't need a shoulder to cry on, a bunching bag to deliver blows to, and I don't need to express my problems/delimmas, because they are trivial in comparison to yours. I don't enjoy watching U envelop your life with materialistic obsessions, but as I've said, nothing I say or do can change the inevitable. Our friendship's always been one-ended . . . U always trying to be there for me, U always trying to "figure out what's wrong." I never was there. I can't just run around the block and knock on your door when things are bad N E more. I can't just pick up the phone, dial your number and spill my guts. I never was able to because I'm not built that way. Things are drastically different from the way they were, and I'm not sure how, or even if I can change that. Holding back, letting U make the mistakes U need to make and do what you need to do in order to live UR life the way U want to is so unbelievably hard for me. It's a strength I don't feel I have too much left of, and as a result, a strong sense of indifference has risen in me, and I can't help but show that indifference. I'm always told that I don't understand because I've never been in that situation, so I don't really see the point in, nor do I have the energy to try to pry U open and get inside your head.
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to