Aug 05, 2008 18:39
It's 6.50pm. Im still at the office while everyone else went back home already. Mira just left few mins ago with arep. She had an event to cover tonite. Pity her. And yes, Shah officially quitted his job already. So sad la k. Without mommy's presence the office seems effing dull n gloomy. Well well...today was a busy day. Fortunately i managed to finish all of my tasks already but only left with one article. Yes. Another collumn in the 5th issue I guess. Besides the whining about me having to do the admin work, im glad to have chose this company to do my internship. Just got off the phone with vicky minutes ago. Just a 15mins call..catching up with each other. She hasnt start with her internship yet. And for Michelle and Wan...i heard that their internship r not as fun as mine. They did their internship at a fashion house. And what they've been doing all day for 2 months already are sewing the beads and unpicking. OMG...I cant imagine myself doing that from morning till nite , every weekdays for 3months *sigh* Im sure am lucky! I should work harder. I know i am working as hard as i can and swallowing every knowledge and contacts i got and lock them safely in my tummy. *oh...my tummy is getting buncit-er by seconds k...i ate alot ok lately...u know, the few days before having period eating habit* Anyhooo, supposed to go for a walk/jogging with syg today but he cant make it. His mom asked him to teman her to IKEA and they went off to IKEA quite late. Therefore, he didnt get to be back by 6. Okay I decided to stop eating rice. And will only eat chicken on weekends. Seriously I need to lose some weight. InsyaAllah Im getting married in 5yrs and i dont wanna look chubby in my wedding pictures so i better start eating healthy now. I need at least 4 years to be decently slim. =)
Life? How's life? Alhamdulillah it's good. Better than ever. Meeting new people in the industry, Besties are here for hols, getting paid for intenrship weehoo, me n bf are as great as ever, my days are behaving....and having to do something (internship) makes me appreciate life more. I can say I've grown to be a lady now (but my childishness still there la..and i think it will still be there when i have kids later on) in sense of how i think...my maturity is increasing by day...facing problems helps alot. I learn how to decide, and how to choose, and how to ignore. Being with boyf, i learn how to control my temper...and not curse everytime Im mad or pissed off. Yes, he is not that kind of person, i rarely hear him curse...actually, i never hear him curse or using bad word. Paling terok yg dier ckp pun is "babi" which i pnah dgr only once. He'll be garang whenever i curse. If he feel like cursing he'll go "fish" instead of "fuck" ...kan? kan? omg he's exactly like my baby sister. And being with him i learn how to be patient. There's the other day when i heard from a good friend of mine bout something ridiculous and untrue about me (which always happen la kan hehe) , I was so mad....and I cant control myself and kept cursing and crying at the same time. That was a BIGGEST frustration i've ever faced in life la k. Plus the thing i heard was something that had happened before. Anyhooo, in my part pulak...after i cried and shout at my own very self , letting out the frustration, I'll be okay....yes, seems untrue kan..but this is the truth. Gimme 15mins to cry...and i'll be fine. Definition of fine : Im in control...trying to think positively...trying to be rasional and come out with severals inference that maybe the particular person didnt mean it that way ..and I'll finally not wanting to talk bout that anymore n just move on. So yeah,....with him beside me, he'll get me to the stage where im in control. He'll say "sabar k syg...we'll figure things out". How can i not be happy with this man? U tell me..maybe some may not understand...y i did this or y i did that. But im happy, and that is all that matters. Like i said, i've grown to be a lady now, a young adult...now I only think about future. Unlike in my previous relationship, me n my partner now plan. We plan. From furthering studies...working..and going to london..and who stay here...and how it's going to be...and family ...and saving enough money for future...talking business and sumer la. We plan. And no, it's not too early to plan. We make plans... Allah decides right? Life is too short to wait. And why bother with all the craps and friends not being friends ke ape...to me, i just think that all of these are misunderstandings...which will unpuzzle themselves when the time comes. And to me, I'll be solving with particular misunderstandings jur. For instant, if the misunderstanding is between me n my bestie. That I'll try my best to sort it out. If the misunderstandings are between friends jur...i'll let it be..lagik2 if the problems appear stupid n immature to me.
Hm there you go...a long boring post. To sum up, i just wanna say Im happy Im glad with whatever or whoever God gives me. It's okay IF people might not want to trust me (which i cant think of any boleh pakai punyer reason ...can u?), the most important thing, i trust myself... and as long as I have my besties..i'll be okayh. Sadly couple of them will only be here until september. Ok la...good day! =)