Tis better to rule in hell then serve in heaven.
Something I continually confirm is my bewilderment at life. My life, being in general,and why being altogether is being the way it is. There has been no coming to terms with this. The whole of being and arising seem arbitrary; happening all around me but hardly taking account of me at all.
History is moving in some other direction....what am I to force it another way....my way....instead I am carried through some hell, and by hell I mean someone else's heaven.
Ah the etymology of Satan, lol...even he words I use...even those are just mere borrowings provided only by those who share my limitations. being unable to work outside the damnable invention of this social paradigm of shared language (therefore minds). Trying to gain independance from this, only emotions remain. Right now the emotion of opposition and the feeling of trying to struggle free... from anything that represents my limitations.
I mean trying to shed my humanity, to be radically "something other". New; refreshed. No longer conventional in any sense.
The world and myself suffer from an overabundance of humanity. No matter how much I hate to admit it I must return to the truth that I am more like then unlike the rest of mankind.
Ha! There is a smaller gap between the ape and the modern man then the modern man and the philosopher? How much ape they all feel to me now and I among them....too many dillusions of superiority; or at any rate...... mistaking a step for a mile.
None of this seems like serious business right now. It seems like an entertainment.--Principles, philosophy, thought,---a diversion to dilute the harrowing and inexplicable fact of life itself. Ignorance luring my mind away from daily struggle, a sedative in between periods of the forced sacrifice of labor, which keeps me in its thralls until I am dead or useless.
This is the dismal reality of virtually all human existence, 'Human' just seems to describe the abortion of something else. Starved by the cancer of affluency.
-------Jeff Berg
History is moving in some other direction....what am I to force it another way....my way....instead I am carried through some hell, and by hell I mean someone else's heaven.
Ah the etymology of Satan, lol...even he words I use...even those are just mere borrowings provided only by those who share my limitations. being unable to work outside the damnable invention of this social paradigm of shared language (therefore minds). Trying to gain independance from this, only emotions remain. Right now the emotion of opposition and the feeling of trying to struggle free... from anything that represents my limitations.
I mean trying to shed my humanity, to be radically "something other". New; refreshed. No longer conventional in any sense.
The world and myself suffer from an overabundance of humanity. No matter how much I hate to admit it I must return to the truth that I am more like then unlike the rest of mankind.
Ha! There is a smaller gap between the ape and the modern man then the modern man and the philosopher? How much ape they all feel to me now and I among them....too many dillusions of superiority; or at any rate...... mistaking a step for a mile.
None of this seems like serious business right now. It seems like an entertainment.--Principles, philosophy, thought,---a diversion to dilute the harrowing and inexplicable fact of life itself. Ignorance luring my mind away from daily struggle, a sedative in between periods of the forced sacrifice of labor, which keeps me in its thralls until I am dead or useless.
This is the dismal reality of virtually all human existence, 'Human' just seems to describe the abortion of something else. Starved by the cancer of affluency.
-------Jeff Berg