BAH!
Ahhh! Kevin read my livejournal! Oh i am pissed. Well if he thinx hes gonna go to Bobs and read it again, heres what I have to say, I LOVE YOU KEVIN!!!!!!!!!
Well anyway! I guess I am so obliviouse, because (I hope Kevin doesnt read this) but Ian has been hitting on me when Kevins not around and it makes me wonder if he knows me and Kevin are together?? Him and Kev are partners in theater arts. I get so aggravated because I simply have no heart to show the black heart I truly feel inside for Ian. He hurt me pretty bad. Kev asked what all happened and I only let myself get away with telling a small portion of it. Its just small things that Ian does that make me so mad that he acts the way he does, I wish he would just be normal! Like today I wore my Incubus hoodie, and he complimented it, thats okay and stuff but he held out his hand for like a high (low) five thing and held on to mine when i slapped it. I quickly pull away because its not only uncomfortable but I want him to know I don't feel anything like that for him. When Im walking down the hall and I see him and I know hes starring at me I don't even want to look, so I act like I quickly scanned who was around and never even noticed him. How could Ian ever think there was any chance for him left after all the crap he put me through, I have Kevin now and he is far more than I could ever ask for....I guess this just makes me uncomfortable and I dont know wheather to be upfront, or what.
Well anyway! I guess I am so obliviouse, because (I hope Kevin doesnt read this) but Ian has been hitting on me when Kevins not around and it makes me wonder if he knows me and Kevin are together?? Him and Kev are partners in theater arts. I get so aggravated because I simply have no heart to show the black heart I truly feel inside for Ian. He hurt me pretty bad. Kev asked what all happened and I only let myself get away with telling a small portion of it. Its just small things that Ian does that make me so mad that he acts the way he does, I wish he would just be normal! Like today I wore my Incubus hoodie, and he complimented it, thats okay and stuff but he held out his hand for like a high (low) five thing and held on to mine when i slapped it. I quickly pull away because its not only uncomfortable but I want him to know I don't feel anything like that for him. When Im walking down the hall and I see him and I know hes starring at me I don't even want to look, so I act like I quickly scanned who was around and never even noticed him. How could Ian ever think there was any chance for him left after all the crap he put me through, I have Kevin now and he is far more than I could ever ask for....I guess this just makes me uncomfortable and I dont know wheather to be upfront, or what.