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i just want to post SOMETHING.
so badly that i started writing my thought down in google taskbar before i realised what i was doing lol.
personally, i think brad renfro is an equal if not greater loss than heath but does he get a g2 cover?
no.
and he has a more interesting biography not just filmography.
last night i had a dream and i fell in love so instantaneously and hard that when i woke up i could feel the hole in my heart. i really want to write a story or song about it but i dont know how to do the experience justice lol.
i keep feeling like i want a floundering (but basically good) relationship that i have to work on and channel energy into constantly cos i feel like it would be awesome me just having to work on "loving someone right" and not in like a thats my whole life but like yeah the other things in life like employment drug usage etc would be monitored upon making another person happy and not being a financial drain wtf i cant ever expres things correctly i feel like i want some kind of validatory relationship life is meaningless to me and so i want someone else to say i mean something thats how i feel maybe?
lol every stupid entry i write in here always fucks up this is never how i want things to read lol like i re read some of these entries and what i am saying has nothing to do with what i mean.
so badly that i started writing my thought down in google taskbar before i realised what i was doing lol.
personally, i think brad renfro is an equal if not greater loss than heath but does he get a g2 cover?
no.
and he has a more interesting biography not just filmography.
last night i had a dream and i fell in love so instantaneously and hard that when i woke up i could feel the hole in my heart. i really want to write a story or song about it but i dont know how to do the experience justice lol.
i keep feeling like i want a floundering (but basically good) relationship that i have to work on and channel energy into constantly cos i feel like it would be awesome me just having to work on "loving someone right" and not in like a thats my whole life but like yeah the other things in life like employment drug usage etc would be monitored upon making another person happy and not being a financial drain wtf i cant ever expres things correctly i feel like i want some kind of validatory relationship life is meaningless to me and so i want someone else to say i mean something thats how i feel maybe?
lol every stupid entry i write in here always fucks up this is never how i want things to read lol like i re read some of these entries and what i am saying has nothing to do with what i mean.