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Things are so much easier now that he is in a different state. Even if I am tempted to go over to his house, I can't, he's not home. I've been working on myself during these couple of days, and it feels good. I know that I could be without him. I am just scared these five or so days are not going to be long enough for me to get over him completely. God damnit, I have been doing so well, on MY OWN. I just have a strong feeling I am going to go back to the same old thing once he gets back. I wish I could be stronger, I wish he could be stronger. I know that I could be with out him, but I keep running back because he is my comfort zone. He only wants me when I am gone, he shouldn't take me for granted. Hopefully one day, SOON, i will realize all of this, instead of just being able to write it down. I`m rambling and upset now, so goodbye!