life is pretty awful
....as of right now.
i thought this year was starting off really really great -
until last night.
i did not want to see what i saw last night, and it really shook me up.
like a huge, cold hand slapping across my face.
i feel like such a humongous idiot, that i couldn't control the tears from rolling down my face.
yeah, i sound like a big baby, and i haven't cried like that in a long time.
for a second there, i thought i had a chance.
i guess not anymore...
it was bound to happen anyways. i didn't even make a move these past few months and there were all these chances that i never took. what was i thinking?!!
whatever.
what does she have that i don't have?
oh yeah... LOOKS and airheadedness.
i thought this year was starting off really really great -
until last night.
i did not want to see what i saw last night, and it really shook me up.
like a huge, cold hand slapping across my face.
i feel like such a humongous idiot, that i couldn't control the tears from rolling down my face.
yeah, i sound like a big baby, and i haven't cried like that in a long time.
for a second there, i thought i had a chance.
i guess not anymore...
it was bound to happen anyways. i didn't even make a move these past few months and there were all these chances that i never took. what was i thinking?!!
whatever.
what does she have that i don't have?
oh yeah... LOOKS and airheadedness.