(no subject)
I still feel like I'm about to start crying and never stop, just because things build up then ONE horrible thing happens and everything falls out, but I don't want it to yet, so I'm holding it in yet again. I had a family dinner tonight, pictures of my cousin tomorrow. I'm coming back to livejournal because I need this outlet. I was on my way to my dealers house, to pick up coke, but my best friend in the world called me back, and I talked to her, and she made things a bit better, so I turned around and came home. I am forever in love with that girl. She always comes to the rescue for me and always sticks by me,even when I'm insane and stupid. BUT I haven't smoked today :) I smoked 2 ciggs. yesterday, but I WILL NOT smoke any this weekend until Tuesday. I refuse. I need to fucking quit. Kevin is an ass hole. I don't know why I'm in love with him, yes I do, he's smart and treats me good A HEANDFUL OF THE TIME. I'm just fucking attracted to fucking Ass holes. WTF. Oh well. I'm going to thrift stores tomorrow with my Mother, Brother and BEST FRIEND Amy Bond, and then tomorrow night (IF THINGS DON'T FALL THROUGH I WILL CRY) I'm spending the night in Amy's dorm. Hopefully we will have some fun, we always do, and I need it at this point, at the moment.
Fuck Guys.
I want to hang out with Amy then get my ass back to college to get away from this shit and see Jeremy and Brittany again. We have fun no matter what. It's like a mini Amy group. except amy is 10 times better. Because she is badass.
Fuck Guys.
I want to hang out with Amy then get my ass back to college to get away from this shit and see Jeremy and Brittany again. We have fun no matter what. It's like a mini Amy group. except amy is 10 times better. Because she is badass.