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fuck... im so disapointed in myself for not writing in here for the longest time... :( and so mcuh stuff has happened.. good and bad.. and just eventful..
well anyways.. ill try to sum it up a little...
so back in august we had out 3 year anniversary, it was a really fun day.. i took him to hollywood and we did those touristy things and i was able to surprise him for once. hah.. then going back to his house, i told him there was a part two that i was going to surprise him about also.. (the hotel) ..he was so suprised for tha also, i was so proud of myself.
so basically we went to the shiloh inn and it felt like a vacation even though it was literally about 7 minutes from both of our houses. it was such a nice get away though, and we felt like we were on our own, so it was really nice.
a couple weeks after that.. i end things with him. two days before im supposed to be leaving for a cruise with Jellie. it was super sad, i thought we were done with everything, even our friendship. at least, thats the only way i would have been able to really get over him and move on, and that was the whole point.. i was so sick of my life with james. i didnt want that to be what i was doing and where i was going and all that stuff, and it was never going to end if we never broke up. so we had to.
then im gone for 5 days on THE BEST CRUISE EVER with jellie haha.. it was so fun i was so excied. it was just me jellie her mom and her aunt. when brian came back from his cruise he told us he ended up spending like 300 dollars for everything.. like tips and alcohol and stuff... when jellie and i got back.. we paid 40 dollars each i think.. haha.. its SO great being a girl. all we had to do was buy like our first 2 or 3 drinks each, then we had people (guys and girls) buying them for us. and we made friends with the bartenders and so they were just giving them to us. it was great. haha. oh and we were able to sneak on some vodka ..like A LOT of vodka and we drank most of it the first day. we were so so so so drunk the whole time on the cruise. haha i loved it. i want to go again. she actually invited me also to go in about a year to the phillipeans with her and her boyfriend and i dont know who else. but im excited. i hope i can go! hah..
so then lets see.. shortly after that.. brian's offer went through on the Rocky mountain in Glendale and so he was the new owner, so he had to leave our store.. it was so sad. such a sad sad day. and jellie and anna and i do go help him sometimes.. but i dont see him nearly as much as i'd like.. i really miss him a lot. not just as a guy that i have a complete crush on, but as a friend too and as a manager. hes just such a great guy, i'd just love to be around him more. but yeah, so since brian left we needed a new manager at our store, so they brough over Brittany from the block. i wasnt too happy about her at first, cause i liked brian as a manager so much, plus i was just really missing brian. but now i dont really like her beacuse shes changing everything.. and like stupid things that dont need to change and its just making it more difficult for all of us who are used to things a certain way.. and then she hired 3 and a half girls for the holidays and its way too many people now, so we're all getting our hours cut so that's rediculous...
oh and right before brian left, we wanted to throw him a going away party, so it was around the same time as amanda's birthday so we had a double party. this was my last hope with brian before he left.. but as i could have predicted, nothing of the sort happened at all.. he did bring matt and steve which was so surprise, oh and scotty. scottys pretty cool too. -matt's little brother that is.
funny thing is though, that brian decided to not tell sarah about this party either. he does this quite a lot, but dont ask me why.. because apartently he still likes her but feels the need to lie to her sometimes... but yeah, so one day working at brian's new store, his girlfriend happened to be there that day also and after working with her, she decided to find me on myspace and so i added her back. the next day brian calls the store all mad becuase she was able to see the pictures we promised him would never be online... she found out and they fought again but theyre back to normal of course.
at that party, i had such a fun time. it was like my first real party party.. with a lot of people i knew and a lot i didnt know and i was able to walk around and talk to a bunch of people and just have so much fun. there was this guy. didnt really stick out too much in my mind during the party, but i guess i did in his mind. he basically wanted to fuck me. later on in the party, drama happens, my ride leaves me, i come back to the appartment to find that everyone else has gone too, so im stuck without a ride. Amanda (whose house it was) told me shed give me a ride if i just let her sober up (hour or so) .. next thing i know.. that guy from before is sitting next to me.. then hes kissing me.. then he says we should go upstairs.. then we're in amanda's roommates room.. then hes putting a condom on... and yeah... so it was 1230 and im calling my now ex boyfriend James to come and pick me up because i have no ride, then all this happens and next thing i know.. Alan (the guy) is telling me that its 4 in the morning, and im like.. ok.. i REALLY have to go this time... hah.. but yeah. HUGE HUGE HUGEST penis in existance. haha.. and we fucked for like 4 hours. then i finally get downstairs and get ahold of james again to come and pick me up (his second trip to fullerton now).
alan asks for my number, tells me he wants to take me out.
im thinking.. i honestly dont care if this is a one night stand. i dont need to see him agian.
a day or two later, alan calls me (happens to be at the exact time that im getting into a car accident, so i dont answer his call)
we text back and forth for a couple days and make a date to go see a movie.
he picks me up, he pays, its a perfectly find date.. not awkward or anything.. it was nice and we held hands during the movie and everything..
trying to figure out what to do after the movie.. i basically just say.. yeah.. lets just go hook up..
he lives way back in corona, so he drives to this place and parks instead.
we kiss and kiss and kiss..
then we fuck.
then i go home
..we text more, everything is normal..
a couple days later i take the initiative and ask if he wants to hang out, he says sure.. i offer to drive to corona so he doesnt have to drive all the way over here...
perfect for him
i get there.. we basically just hang out (at his grandmas house in corona) with his best friend sean, watch some tv, watch a movie, sean makes a steak, we hang out outside while he cooks it, we find a time to sneak into his room and have sex...
watch more tv.. then i leave.
trying to text him after that is impossible..
he takes FOREVER to respond.. like days, and he doenst respond like he interested.. then i start to seem obsessed cause im texting him and he isnt texting me back, then im texting him about how he isnt texting me back... then i give up
next thing i know, amanda is telling me that hes talking shit almost about me at another party she went to when he was there.. saying that im so in love with him and stuff.. what a prick right?
..he wasnt even my type, i convinced myself to see him more after the party.. hes the one who was persuing me in the first place, and then i was totally find just hooking up with him sometimes, i made it very clear to him that i wasnt looking for anything, and that i completely just thought it was cool hanging out with him and stuff..
i really dont know why he just stopped talking to me. but i guess whatever.
not much else after that... that is a lot though. hah...
well anyways.. ill try to sum it up a little...
so back in august we had out 3 year anniversary, it was a really fun day.. i took him to hollywood and we did those touristy things and i was able to surprise him for once. hah.. then going back to his house, i told him there was a part two that i was going to surprise him about also.. (the hotel) ..he was so suprised for tha also, i was so proud of myself.
so basically we went to the shiloh inn and it felt like a vacation even though it was literally about 7 minutes from both of our houses. it was such a nice get away though, and we felt like we were on our own, so it was really nice.
a couple weeks after that.. i end things with him. two days before im supposed to be leaving for a cruise with Jellie. it was super sad, i thought we were done with everything, even our friendship. at least, thats the only way i would have been able to really get over him and move on, and that was the whole point.. i was so sick of my life with james. i didnt want that to be what i was doing and where i was going and all that stuff, and it was never going to end if we never broke up. so we had to.
then im gone for 5 days on THE BEST CRUISE EVER with jellie haha.. it was so fun i was so excied. it was just me jellie her mom and her aunt. when brian came back from his cruise he told us he ended up spending like 300 dollars for everything.. like tips and alcohol and stuff... when jellie and i got back.. we paid 40 dollars each i think.. haha.. its SO great being a girl. all we had to do was buy like our first 2 or 3 drinks each, then we had people (guys and girls) buying them for us. and we made friends with the bartenders and so they were just giving them to us. it was great. haha. oh and we were able to sneak on some vodka ..like A LOT of vodka and we drank most of it the first day. we were so so so so drunk the whole time on the cruise. haha i loved it. i want to go again. she actually invited me also to go in about a year to the phillipeans with her and her boyfriend and i dont know who else. but im excited. i hope i can go! hah..
so then lets see.. shortly after that.. brian's offer went through on the Rocky mountain in Glendale and so he was the new owner, so he had to leave our store.. it was so sad. such a sad sad day. and jellie and anna and i do go help him sometimes.. but i dont see him nearly as much as i'd like.. i really miss him a lot. not just as a guy that i have a complete crush on, but as a friend too and as a manager. hes just such a great guy, i'd just love to be around him more. but yeah, so since brian left we needed a new manager at our store, so they brough over Brittany from the block. i wasnt too happy about her at first, cause i liked brian as a manager so much, plus i was just really missing brian. but now i dont really like her beacuse shes changing everything.. and like stupid things that dont need to change and its just making it more difficult for all of us who are used to things a certain way.. and then she hired 3 and a half girls for the holidays and its way too many people now, so we're all getting our hours cut so that's rediculous...
oh and right before brian left, we wanted to throw him a going away party, so it was around the same time as amanda's birthday so we had a double party. this was my last hope with brian before he left.. but as i could have predicted, nothing of the sort happened at all.. he did bring matt and steve which was so surprise, oh and scotty. scottys pretty cool too. -matt's little brother that is.
funny thing is though, that brian decided to not tell sarah about this party either. he does this quite a lot, but dont ask me why.. because apartently he still likes her but feels the need to lie to her sometimes... but yeah, so one day working at brian's new store, his girlfriend happened to be there that day also and after working with her, she decided to find me on myspace and so i added her back. the next day brian calls the store all mad becuase she was able to see the pictures we promised him would never be online... she found out and they fought again but theyre back to normal of course.
at that party, i had such a fun time. it was like my first real party party.. with a lot of people i knew and a lot i didnt know and i was able to walk around and talk to a bunch of people and just have so much fun. there was this guy. didnt really stick out too much in my mind during the party, but i guess i did in his mind. he basically wanted to fuck me. later on in the party, drama happens, my ride leaves me, i come back to the appartment to find that everyone else has gone too, so im stuck without a ride. Amanda (whose house it was) told me shed give me a ride if i just let her sober up (hour or so) .. next thing i know.. that guy from before is sitting next to me.. then hes kissing me.. then he says we should go upstairs.. then we're in amanda's roommates room.. then hes putting a condom on... and yeah... so it was 1230 and im calling my now ex boyfriend James to come and pick me up because i have no ride, then all this happens and next thing i know.. Alan (the guy) is telling me that its 4 in the morning, and im like.. ok.. i REALLY have to go this time... hah.. but yeah. HUGE HUGE HUGEST penis in existance. haha.. and we fucked for like 4 hours. then i finally get downstairs and get ahold of james again to come and pick me up (his second trip to fullerton now).
alan asks for my number, tells me he wants to take me out.
im thinking.. i honestly dont care if this is a one night stand. i dont need to see him agian.
a day or two later, alan calls me (happens to be at the exact time that im getting into a car accident, so i dont answer his call)
we text back and forth for a couple days and make a date to go see a movie.
he picks me up, he pays, its a perfectly find date.. not awkward or anything.. it was nice and we held hands during the movie and everything..
trying to figure out what to do after the movie.. i basically just say.. yeah.. lets just go hook up..
he lives way back in corona, so he drives to this place and parks instead.
we kiss and kiss and kiss..
then we fuck.
then i go home
..we text more, everything is normal..
a couple days later i take the initiative and ask if he wants to hang out, he says sure.. i offer to drive to corona so he doesnt have to drive all the way over here...
perfect for him
i get there.. we basically just hang out (at his grandmas house in corona) with his best friend sean, watch some tv, watch a movie, sean makes a steak, we hang out outside while he cooks it, we find a time to sneak into his room and have sex...
watch more tv.. then i leave.
trying to text him after that is impossible..
he takes FOREVER to respond.. like days, and he doenst respond like he interested.. then i start to seem obsessed cause im texting him and he isnt texting me back, then im texting him about how he isnt texting me back... then i give up
next thing i know, amanda is telling me that hes talking shit almost about me at another party she went to when he was there.. saying that im so in love with him and stuff.. what a prick right?
..he wasnt even my type, i convinced myself to see him more after the party.. hes the one who was persuing me in the first place, and then i was totally find just hooking up with him sometimes, i made it very clear to him that i wasnt looking for anything, and that i completely just thought it was cool hanging out with him and stuff..
i really dont know why he just stopped talking to me. but i guess whatever.
not much else after that... that is a lot though. hah...