*sigh*
"It's really depressing thought when the one you trust can't trust you."
These are the last words Karianne spoke to me last night. I feel really sucky. I was at Arthur Pack with her and my brother, and I was so scared and i freaked out ans told her that i couldn't stay there, cuz i was too scared. Yeah, thats right! I'm a p*ssy. Sure, you can call me that. But really, I try soooo hard to not be scared. I wanted to trust Karianne and my brother. I wanted to hun, honest! But I couldn't. Believe me, living my life in fear sux. Especially at moments like this. I mean I really do care about Karianne so much! I have told her things it took me MONTHS to tell my best friend. Actually, one of my best friend's doesn't even know about some of the things I've told Karianne. I really do trust her. I wanted to hang out at the park. I was so flippin scared tho, and now i wish i hadn't been. gosh, i just wanna break down. there is SO much crap. I swear its like the school board knew that the past two weeks had been really hectic, so they just gave me a break. but on a lighter note, I love my Trev. He's so awesome to me. He wrote me this really cute poem and I'll post it in here when I get the chance. So, now that we've had our break from drama, let me fill you in with more:
*Saw Sarah's dad at the mall today. I'm almost definite it was him. He shouldn't be in town, has no reason to...
*my brother's all pissy at me cuz Karianne "trusts" me more than him and has no reason to, but he says this cuz of the driving thing, which i don't even want to get into, cuz I DO NOT want Karianne to feel anymore negative feelings toward me. But seriously, he's being a jerk about it, and I think its lame.
*Joseph is a jerkface too. That's right. You all read that correctly. Its funny how Brittney thinks I talk about her behind her back and then deny it, but I really don't. While, Joseph talks just as much crap cuz she's even more of a witch to him, and then he can go out and eat with her. Yeah, so Brittney, next time you wanna cuss someone out, get a valid reason, and make sure it works and does not sound stupid because its hypocritical or directed to the wrong person.
Well, I think thats about it for right now. I can't believe I put all that in here. Some of this stuff is going to really piss some people off! but guess what-I don't care!!! Right now all I really care about is fixing things between me and Karianne, cuz its the suckiest thing that happened, and the one that won't fix itself, and its just my priority right now. So! on that note, I love you all...sorat of, and have a good night.
P.S. You might see me in the rodeo parade 2morrow!! Woohoo **rolls eyes sarcastically ;) **
These are the last words Karianne spoke to me last night. I feel really sucky. I was at Arthur Pack with her and my brother, and I was so scared and i freaked out ans told her that i couldn't stay there, cuz i was too scared. Yeah, thats right! I'm a p*ssy. Sure, you can call me that. But really, I try soooo hard to not be scared. I wanted to trust Karianne and my brother. I wanted to hun, honest! But I couldn't. Believe me, living my life in fear sux. Especially at moments like this. I mean I really do care about Karianne so much! I have told her things it took me MONTHS to tell my best friend. Actually, one of my best friend's doesn't even know about some of the things I've told Karianne. I really do trust her. I wanted to hang out at the park. I was so flippin scared tho, and now i wish i hadn't been. gosh, i just wanna break down. there is SO much crap. I swear its like the school board knew that the past two weeks had been really hectic, so they just gave me a break. but on a lighter note, I love my Trev. He's so awesome to me. He wrote me this really cute poem and I'll post it in here when I get the chance. So, now that we've had our break from drama, let me fill you in with more:
*Saw Sarah's dad at the mall today. I'm almost definite it was him. He shouldn't be in town, has no reason to...
*my brother's all pissy at me cuz Karianne "trusts" me more than him and has no reason to, but he says this cuz of the driving thing, which i don't even want to get into, cuz I DO NOT want Karianne to feel anymore negative feelings toward me. But seriously, he's being a jerk about it, and I think its lame.
*Joseph is a jerkface too. That's right. You all read that correctly. Its funny how Brittney thinks I talk about her behind her back and then deny it, but I really don't. While, Joseph talks just as much crap cuz she's even more of a witch to him, and then he can go out and eat with her. Yeah, so Brittney, next time you wanna cuss someone out, get a valid reason, and make sure it works and does not sound stupid because its hypocritical or directed to the wrong person.
Well, I think thats about it for right now. I can't believe I put all that in here. Some of this stuff is going to really piss some people off! but guess what-I don't care!!! Right now all I really care about is fixing things between me and Karianne, cuz its the suckiest thing that happened, and the one that won't fix itself, and its just my priority right now. So! on that note, I love you all...sorat of, and have a good night.
P.S. You might see me in the rodeo parade 2morrow!! Woohoo **rolls eyes sarcastically ;) **