hmmm..
LOTS on my mind...
so i despise my best friend right now. It used to be her and him that made me happy...now they seem to be the source of my utmost unhappiness..i mean, i did so much for him and he blows it off like i still owe him my life. he treats everyone like shit when hes with her...tho they aren't even together..and she would do anything to keep him from being upset with her..and i used to let her get away with it..but when you ditch me in a mall almost in tears and want to say you are sorry and wanna think everythings okay...then that is fucked up. im done being selfless for her sake. effing done. on monday, it will be all about me. yeah thats right, ima be selfish for once!
on a lighter note, i went to a lock-in on thursday and it friggin rocked...oy he was there...yeah i know that makes it obvious...it doesnt matter anyway, cuz he doesnt feel the same and it wouldnt work...but it is nice to feel all giggly inside every now and then!
and oh goodness, i am going out with my K-Dizzle tonight!! i am hella excited! no drama...just fun!! yay!!! lol i need this right now!! heehee anywho...my hair is blue and i like it...mostly...ive gotta fix it still but ya know...
so anyway, now that i got that outta my system i feel SO much better!! thank you!!
♥
~Julie!~
so i despise my best friend right now. It used to be her and him that made me happy...now they seem to be the source of my utmost unhappiness..i mean, i did so much for him and he blows it off like i still owe him my life. he treats everyone like shit when hes with her...tho they aren't even together..and she would do anything to keep him from being upset with her..and i used to let her get away with it..but when you ditch me in a mall almost in tears and want to say you are sorry and wanna think everythings okay...then that is fucked up. im done being selfless for her sake. effing done. on monday, it will be all about me. yeah thats right, ima be selfish for once!
on a lighter note, i went to a lock-in on thursday and it friggin rocked...oy he was there...yeah i know that makes it obvious...it doesnt matter anyway, cuz he doesnt feel the same and it wouldnt work...but it is nice to feel all giggly inside every now and then!
and oh goodness, i am going out with my K-Dizzle tonight!! i am hella excited! no drama...just fun!! yay!!! lol i need this right now!! heehee anywho...my hair is blue and i like it...mostly...ive gotta fix it still but ya know...
so anyway, now that i got that outta my system i feel SO much better!! thank you!!
♥
~Julie!~