life is unpredictable
last night mike dropped me off in the parking lot of van aken shopping center where my car was and i sat around for a good while and smoked the rest of the pack i had bought earlier that day. all the lights were off in all the store windows. safe to say that not much was going on there. i thought a lot about how unpredictable life really is and how i was a straight edger when i came into high school and i was strongly against substance abuse of any kind. now i am a "nicotene prince" according to one alex garner. i have done my fair share of drinking this year and have got a little high off the weed as well. it only goes to show that you really can never say with any complete certainty what your stance will be on people, places, things and ideas in the future. this past year has changed me more than the other three years of my high school life combined. i think i may just be ready for college. i got to stop smoking, start studying, start getting in shape, and have a little fun here and there. those are my goals for next year. 4.0's all across the board is what im aiming for. i know i can do it if i bust my ass hard enough. be the best. its not gonna be easy to study there though.....i heard a story today about OU's halloween parties....50 kegs on ONE block. wow. my that is a lot of beer. i feel odd because i want to make summer last but at the same time i think i really could use a fresh start. that part has me a little confused. im trying hard to make the most of each day though. i can say that much.