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workshops are over.
we sang body and soul for the last time.
and its time i put that wretched song out of my mind.
time to focus on other things.
like piano playing. singing better.
and music theory.
i am once again faced with the dilemma of moving out of my current habitat. my landlord keeps giving me reasons to stay. he's buttering me up. compliments me on how i'm a good housekeeper, gave 100 bucks for the summer and tells me if i stay he'll have me be sort of the house manager and take 50 bucks off of my rent every month. 340 big ones to live here when i was paying 415. sounds tempting and there will be other people here that dont quite conflict with my need for privacy and introspection. but the core of the group would still try to include me in things all the time.
i admit, it will be awkward for me to move out and still come and hang with these fellas. staying here and being awkward because i might always want to get away from them doesn't sound all that great.
but it's a great room, i wouldn't have to move anything. and i would still have my lovely windows and the awesome morning sun.
i like living here. i think if different people did live here, i'd be more obliged to continue to do so. but alas, i am between extremes.
my friend/teacher tells me 'i think you've already decided'.
i stared at her blankly trying not to communicate my disbelief in her statement. 'if there's doubt, there's no doubt' she exclaimed for the second night in a row. i made a timid nodding gesture and turned to someone else.
we sang body and soul for the last time.
and its time i put that wretched song out of my mind.
time to focus on other things.
like piano playing. singing better.
and music theory.
i am once again faced with the dilemma of moving out of my current habitat. my landlord keeps giving me reasons to stay. he's buttering me up. compliments me on how i'm a good housekeeper, gave 100 bucks for the summer and tells me if i stay he'll have me be sort of the house manager and take 50 bucks off of my rent every month. 340 big ones to live here when i was paying 415. sounds tempting and there will be other people here that dont quite conflict with my need for privacy and introspection. but the core of the group would still try to include me in things all the time.
i admit, it will be awkward for me to move out and still come and hang with these fellas. staying here and being awkward because i might always want to get away from them doesn't sound all that great.
but it's a great room, i wouldn't have to move anything. and i would still have my lovely windows and the awesome morning sun.
i like living here. i think if different people did live here, i'd be more obliged to continue to do so. but alas, i am between extremes.
my friend/teacher tells me 'i think you've already decided'.
i stared at her blankly trying not to communicate my disbelief in her statement. 'if there's doubt, there's no doubt' she exclaimed for the second night in a row. i made a timid nodding gesture and turned to someone else.