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a crush. a crush. a c-r-u-s-h. he has a crush on a girl.
not just a girl. but a beautiful, smart girl who I admire and love and think is the coolest girl in salt lake city. meanwhile i have the sickest stomach and the urge to cry for the rest of my life. and just ball up and disappear. I alternately can't stand the thought of ever seeing him and just wanting to be with him 24 hours a day. oh someone, please do something. I can't do this.
I keep going over every wonderful thing I have said about her. the time I told him that i saw her without her glasses on and how absolutely gorgeous she was and how blue her eyes are and EVERYTHING. and when he told em all I said was "Oh you should totally pursue that!! she is great!! you can so get her!!" look at all the fake enthusiasm. oh puke.
not just a girl. but a beautiful, smart girl who I admire and love and think is the coolest girl in salt lake city. meanwhile i have the sickest stomach and the urge to cry for the rest of my life. and just ball up and disappear. I alternately can't stand the thought of ever seeing him and just wanting to be with him 24 hours a day. oh someone, please do something. I can't do this.
I keep going over every wonderful thing I have said about her. the time I told him that i saw her without her glasses on and how absolutely gorgeous she was and how blue her eyes are and EVERYTHING. and when he told em all I said was "Oh you should totally pursue that!! she is great!! you can so get her!!" look at all the fake enthusiasm. oh puke.