When they raise the landing gear, will your heart stay here?
"You're what keeps me
believing the world's not gone dead,
the strength in my bones,
put the words in my head. When they
pour out to paper, it's all for you.
'Cause that's what you do."
I've been a mess, lately. I'm not the crying type, but almost every time that I get some alone time I end up crying a little lately. I don't know. This distance thing is getting to me with Chris. I'm not saying I want to break up with him or anything. That would make me more miserable. I just hate being so far away. I won't lie I'm totally jealous of girls that can see their boyfriends once a week, even. I've never felt this way about anyone, ever. I never thought I could feel this way. I've had boyfriends before, and I never really cared. I just thought I wasn't the relationship type. I guess I am, though. We could grow apart someday, but for now, I cannot imagine being without him.
I get to see him for Halloween, and I can't wait. I'd go see him right now if I could. I also know that it's going to be a million times harder to leave this time. This time is it, though. After this visit I'll never have to visit again. He and I will be living together with Molly Sue, Chowder, and our future hedgehog. That's all I want. Of all the things I look forward to, I look forward to that the most.
believing the world's not gone dead,
the strength in my bones,
put the words in my head. When they
pour out to paper, it's all for you.
'Cause that's what you do."
I've been a mess, lately. I'm not the crying type, but almost every time that I get some alone time I end up crying a little lately. I don't know. This distance thing is getting to me with Chris. I'm not saying I want to break up with him or anything. That would make me more miserable. I just hate being so far away. I won't lie I'm totally jealous of girls that can see their boyfriends once a week, even. I've never felt this way about anyone, ever. I never thought I could feel this way. I've had boyfriends before, and I never really cared. I just thought I wasn't the relationship type. I guess I am, though. We could grow apart someday, but for now, I cannot imagine being without him.
I get to see him for Halloween, and I can't wait. I'd go see him right now if I could. I also know that it's going to be a million times harder to leave this time. This time is it, though. After this visit I'll never have to visit again. He and I will be living together with Molly Sue, Chowder, and our future hedgehog. That's all I want. Of all the things I look forward to, I look forward to that the most.