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yeah... that's cool. thanks guys. so much support i get from my friends. so the 4 of us (me, josh, danielle, and steven) all went to hurrican harbor like... last summer or something. GREAT time! i mean, it was a blast!! and we said, hey, before we graduate, we should all go to 6 flags... well, graduation is coming up quickly... god damn is it ever. so we're like, huh, let's still go. right, so we're going over days we cant go... we cant go thursday cuase of grad trip, we cant go sat cuase of lines, sunday is a maybe, monday is a maybe... anything else is out of the question. so, they're like, hey, let's go wednesday. yeah, i have the biggest fucking interview of my life! this could lead to my actual career. this isnt just taco bell... so, i talk to steven, he was like, yeah, we can just leave by 2, becuase it'll be hot and stuff by then anyway... yeah, josh is like, well, if im going im going for the whole day... so whatever, i guess they're going with out me. thanks friends for being here for me... for including me on a trip that was supposed to be the four of us. thanks. great friends you are. awesome. i think it's so cool that im going to have to face the real world alone, becuase in all honesty, this isnt the only time that they just havent been there for me. and you know what i foudn suprising, that steven was there for me. not really suprising, i guess just more refreshing. so, im so glad that im going into this whole graduation thying, just starting out a new person. becuase i know that i dont matter to any of them, so fuck it. fuck them. they never even stopped to consider me... so... whatever.
elan, i love you. i want you to know that! and i know i'll always have you no matter what, and that, to me, means so much more than i could ever even say....
i know that tehre are some people out there for me. but not as many as most people would think. they think, oh you're good friends with this person.. yeah, as soon as something better comes along, i dont even exist. so it's alright... i'm coming to terms with this...
jesus will help me through this. yeah, that's right, i said it. i mean it too. i know that there is more out there, than i've believed my whole life, and im fidning it all out. im just praying for all my "friends" im hoping that you can just understand other peoples feelings... and even though im sure we wont see each other much, i hope you have good lives... and if that's with out me, that's fine. becuase to be honest, i feel like so much less of a person when im around some of you. and you know what, you have no right to make me feel that way. and yeah, some do it on purpose, some it's just me, and for those people, i dont blame you. im working on it. and im doing it alone. no i'm not... i've got so many on my side... i know it. maybe not physical people, but i know i 've got someone up there that loves me. so fuck you.
oh, i have prom pictures i'm going to put up... but i'll do that later.
elan, i love you. i want you to know that! and i know i'll always have you no matter what, and that, to me, means so much more than i could ever even say....
i know that tehre are some people out there for me. but not as many as most people would think. they think, oh you're good friends with this person.. yeah, as soon as something better comes along, i dont even exist. so it's alright... i'm coming to terms with this...
jesus will help me through this. yeah, that's right, i said it. i mean it too. i know that there is more out there, than i've believed my whole life, and im fidning it all out. im just praying for all my "friends" im hoping that you can just understand other peoples feelings... and even though im sure we wont see each other much, i hope you have good lives... and if that's with out me, that's fine. becuase to be honest, i feel like so much less of a person when im around some of you. and you know what, you have no right to make me feel that way. and yeah, some do it on purpose, some it's just me, and for those people, i dont blame you. im working on it. and im doing it alone. no i'm not... i've got so many on my side... i know it. maybe not physical people, but i know i 've got someone up there that loves me. so fuck you.
oh, i have prom pictures i'm going to put up... but i'll do that later.