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so, me and cortney are going to prom. i asked her when she came into taco bell... well, actually, she was like... hey, ho i heard you werent going to prom. and i was like yeah, i dont really want to, she was like, yeah you do... so i awas like, wanna go with me then? and she was like, eyah i'd love to... then i had to tell her about why i wasnt going with josh... he was like "i didnt kick you out of anything" ok... that's why i'm still dancing with you guys, huh? it's kjust really weird. it's finally not weird hanging out with him. it just got weird, becuase i dont know, i just feel like our friendship means nothing to him... to any of them for that matter. and i honestly do not believe it was a "2-1" decision... i think it was unanimous.
i'm doing much better than i was yesterday. not sickness wise, but just mentally and all... i decided that i really miss steven. like uber. it's funy to think about what happened between us. like... i dont even know what happened. one day it was just like, hey, we're not friends anymore. and that's really sad. but i'm slowly learning that everyone moves on. and im glad that he's happier without me... he's happier where he's at. i thought baout asking him to prom. i really just wanted to hang out with him again. just becuase we used to hang out... he's the one that pulled me out of all the bad things i was into.. becase we used to sit in my room and play donkey kong and listen to the vagina song by the blood hound gang. i think about calling him every once in a while. but the only time i hang out wiht him is when josh is there. and even then, it's not that often. andi thought that now that we had isidis, we were really getting closer... guess i was wrong. but i really just hope he's happy, becuase what he's been through he really deserves that more than almost anyone i know. it may not seem like it someitmes, but he's gone though a lot... and im so proud that he is where he's at.
ms. marshall thinks that my sickness is broght on becuase i take everything in. she said its how her mother died... just held it all in until she got really sick. so i'm trying not to be that way. mostly cuase i dont like being sick.
today me and cort kidd are hanging out. cool beans :) not till later though, so if anyone cool wnats ot hang out call me later
i'm doing much better than i was yesterday. not sickness wise, but just mentally and all... i decided that i really miss steven. like uber. it's funy to think about what happened between us. like... i dont even know what happened. one day it was just like, hey, we're not friends anymore. and that's really sad. but i'm slowly learning that everyone moves on. and im glad that he's happier without me... he's happier where he's at. i thought baout asking him to prom. i really just wanted to hang out with him again. just becuase we used to hang out... he's the one that pulled me out of all the bad things i was into.. becase we used to sit in my room and play donkey kong and listen to the vagina song by the blood hound gang. i think about calling him every once in a while. but the only time i hang out wiht him is when josh is there. and even then, it's not that often. andi thought that now that we had isidis, we were really getting closer... guess i was wrong. but i really just hope he's happy, becuase what he's been through he really deserves that more than almost anyone i know. it may not seem like it someitmes, but he's gone though a lot... and im so proud that he is where he's at.
ms. marshall thinks that my sickness is broght on becuase i take everything in. she said its how her mother died... just held it all in until she got really sick. so i'm trying not to be that way. mostly cuase i dont like being sick.
today me and cort kidd are hanging out. cool beans :) not till later though, so if anyone cool wnats ot hang out call me later