Thinking Outrageously
I think the Obama vote get's a post out of me. Yeah, I think so.
It's 5:30 in the Morning. While I waited to see if Obama was President, I was getting drunk. I think I went to bed around 10:30 or so? I woke up at 5 with a huge smile on my face and it took a full 10 minutes for it to sink in that I was smiling because we elected, I'm gonna say it, the RIGHT guy.
I see the wasp with her wings outstretched.
You know how they say that if you really, truly believed you could fly... you would? I feel like America proved that tonight. The thing that keeps me smiling is the fact that a real honest-to-God wedding might be a possibility for me in the next 8 years. Thinking back, it has been 7 years since I came out. Wow... has it really been that long? Man, I'm getting old faster than I thought I would. Anyway... 7 years have gone by since I came out. I remember my mom telling me that it was going to be a hard life for me... she made mention to some of our more annoying family and the new president... BUSH. You can bet I have been following closely the whole gay-marriage debacle. From what I understand Prop 8 was passed? That sickens me. However! There is now evident HOPE. The win in California earlier this year was fantastic, that fact it has been snatched away... I actually feel like my heart is breaking. HOPE, though... Obama is president. He opposes gay marriage NOW. I see nothing but change in this man, that's why I voted for him.
I've been waiting for so long... for something to arrive.
Man, I haven't listened to THIS song in years. It takes me right back to where I was at 15. Really stupid. Really young. And scared of all the wrong things. I have grown up. Im way more mature... and at the same time so insanely bitter towards life. Sometimes I scare myself with the negativity that lives inside of me. Its at the point where everything is bad, nothing good came come from anything or anyone. I'm pulling an uber-cancer and starting to retreat in my shell. I find myself hanging out with myself more and more... and liking it more and more. When I am all by myself I can do exactly what I want to do. Like right now. I am actually pleased as a peach to be up before anyone else.
All the ducks are swimming in the water.
Interesting. This version is different from the one I have on my iPod. Interesting. Its now 6:00am. Thats interesting, too. You see? being alone is fascinating. Fuck everyone else. I need none of you to be alone and happy. I will become a hermit. Hm. I wish I could be an urban hermit. If I didn't have to worry about money... I probably would. The Urban Hermit Crab Dylan. Oh man... I'm such a Cancer sometimes.
You... haunt my dreams.
I should probably go back to bed and sleep for the next few hours. Maybe I will even go to class tomorrow. It is Stage Combat... and how I love to "pretend" to hack and slash at all of my classmates.
Just believe.
I leave you all witht he hope of a new nation and the fear of never hearing from me. Well... not anytime soon. But then again... I never update this anyway. Oof. These thoughts are too deep for a 6am hangover.
Good Morning.
It's 5:30 in the Morning. While I waited to see if Obama was President, I was getting drunk. I think I went to bed around 10:30 or so? I woke up at 5 with a huge smile on my face and it took a full 10 minutes for it to sink in that I was smiling because we elected, I'm gonna say it, the RIGHT guy.
I see the wasp with her wings outstretched.
You know how they say that if you really, truly believed you could fly... you would? I feel like America proved that tonight. The thing that keeps me smiling is the fact that a real honest-to-God wedding might be a possibility for me in the next 8 years. Thinking back, it has been 7 years since I came out. Wow... has it really been that long? Man, I'm getting old faster than I thought I would. Anyway... 7 years have gone by since I came out. I remember my mom telling me that it was going to be a hard life for me... she made mention to some of our more annoying family and the new president... BUSH. You can bet I have been following closely the whole gay-marriage debacle. From what I understand Prop 8 was passed? That sickens me. However! There is now evident HOPE. The win in California earlier this year was fantastic, that fact it has been snatched away... I actually feel like my heart is breaking. HOPE, though... Obama is president. He opposes gay marriage NOW. I see nothing but change in this man, that's why I voted for him.
I've been waiting for so long... for something to arrive.
Man, I haven't listened to THIS song in years. It takes me right back to where I was at 15. Really stupid. Really young. And scared of all the wrong things. I have grown up. Im way more mature... and at the same time so insanely bitter towards life. Sometimes I scare myself with the negativity that lives inside of me. Its at the point where everything is bad, nothing good came come from anything or anyone. I'm pulling an uber-cancer and starting to retreat in my shell. I find myself hanging out with myself more and more... and liking it more and more. When I am all by myself I can do exactly what I want to do. Like right now. I am actually pleased as a peach to be up before anyone else.
All the ducks are swimming in the water.
Interesting. This version is different from the one I have on my iPod. Interesting. Its now 6:00am. Thats interesting, too. You see? being alone is fascinating. Fuck everyone else. I need none of you to be alone and happy. I will become a hermit. Hm. I wish I could be an urban hermit. If I didn't have to worry about money... I probably would. The Urban Hermit Crab Dylan. Oh man... I'm such a Cancer sometimes.
You... haunt my dreams.
I should probably go back to bed and sleep for the next few hours. Maybe I will even go to class tomorrow. It is Stage Combat... and how I love to "pretend" to hack and slash at all of my classmates.
Just believe.
I leave you all witht he hope of a new nation and the fear of never hearing from me. Well... not anytime soon. But then again... I never update this anyway. Oof. These thoughts are too deep for a 6am hangover.
Good Morning.