ramblings.
I am very tired. Between not having WoW or my computer, exams, people at school being mean/stupid, not having a ladytype, and the fucking insane chemistry exam, I am about out of steam.
This will all be over soon. Two days of exams, and then two play performances, (btw karly thats what is on saturday, you can come along if you like, we can do evarything togeather!) and I will be able to collapse.
I hope I didn't make chase or jessi angry today. I had to pirate chase's house, and it was not polite at all. I feel bad for having to ask, but I think that what I really feel bad about is losing touch with chase and jessi. Despite the fact that I love and care about them, stuff gets busy and time gets short. That is of course, no excuse, time will always be short. We need to get togeather.
I feel like no one at school knows me. I'm trying to think about who knows me well enough, and cares about me enough, that we could spend long sections of time in ernest discussion, and I just cant come up with a person.
I'm good at school. Honestly, I'm getting good grades, and even squeaking by with a B in chem, despite my not understanding a lick of it. But school, asides from latin, doesn't make me happy at all.
Even when I'm depressed I'm cheerful. Even when I'm angry I hug people. My main defense mechanism, when people are bitchy or mean, is to smile, act innocent, and walk away. I get the feeling that more and more, people dont realize that I'm just acting, that it really does make me angry, and that I dont actually forgive and forget. I almost always forgive, but I never forget.
I am, like usual, rambling, but I guess it's just how I think. Like usual I'm chasing my cute little innocent tail. I think the solution to all my, oh I'll call it angst and emoness, is to endure all this suckage until I'm free of it, and then get back togeather with intelligent people who like me.
This will all be over soon. Two days of exams, and then two play performances, (btw karly thats what is on saturday, you can come along if you like, we can do evarything togeather!) and I will be able to collapse.
I hope I didn't make chase or jessi angry today. I had to pirate chase's house, and it was not polite at all. I feel bad for having to ask, but I think that what I really feel bad about is losing touch with chase and jessi. Despite the fact that I love and care about them, stuff gets busy and time gets short. That is of course, no excuse, time will always be short. We need to get togeather.
I feel like no one at school knows me. I'm trying to think about who knows me well enough, and cares about me enough, that we could spend long sections of time in ernest discussion, and I just cant come up with a person.
I'm good at school. Honestly, I'm getting good grades, and even squeaking by with a B in chem, despite my not understanding a lick of it. But school, asides from latin, doesn't make me happy at all.
Even when I'm depressed I'm cheerful. Even when I'm angry I hug people. My main defense mechanism, when people are bitchy or mean, is to smile, act innocent, and walk away. I get the feeling that more and more, people dont realize that I'm just acting, that it really does make me angry, and that I dont actually forgive and forget. I almost always forgive, but I never forget.
I am, like usual, rambling, but I guess it's just how I think. Like usual I'm chasing my cute little innocent tail. I think the solution to all my, oh I'll call it angst and emoness, is to endure all this suckage until I'm free of it, and then get back togeather with intelligent people who like me.