EM May topic
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
I'll never forget the look in her eyes when I grabbed her arm. Tara hadn't committed any crime other than being there for Willow when I ran away and I will never forget how pale her skin was and how fast her heart beat.
I went away to learn to control the beast inside of me. Only it hadn't worked the way I thought it would. Instead of controlling it all the time and only changing at the full moon I'd released the wolf to be free on any day and not just under the silver light of the moon.
I gave up everything to learn control. I thought I wanted to know my wolf better but I wanted Willow. I learned control but I lost her. Not exactly a good trade.
I also won't forget being tortured with electricity over and over until the wolf took over. I was in that cage so tired from turning again and again before I dragged myself back from the edge into my humanity again. So tired and not able to sleep because whenever I closed my eyes I wasn't sure if I'd wake up with skin or fur.
Two things I will always remember and hold onto so I don't forget the more important things. The look of terror inspired by me, and what will happen if I ever get caught again.
So I keep moving. I keep hunting.
I got control over myself but I don't have a home. Getting what you want isn't the same as getting what you need.
And that sucks.
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
I'll never forget the look in her eyes when I grabbed her arm. Tara hadn't committed any crime other than being there for Willow when I ran away and I will never forget how pale her skin was and how fast her heart beat.
I went away to learn to control the beast inside of me. Only it hadn't worked the way I thought it would. Instead of controlling it all the time and only changing at the full moon I'd released the wolf to be free on any day and not just under the silver light of the moon.
I gave up everything to learn control. I thought I wanted to know my wolf better but I wanted Willow. I learned control but I lost her. Not exactly a good trade.
I also won't forget being tortured with electricity over and over until the wolf took over. I was in that cage so tired from turning again and again before I dragged myself back from the edge into my humanity again. So tired and not able to sleep because whenever I closed my eyes I wasn't sure if I'd wake up with skin or fur.
Two things I will always remember and hold onto so I don't forget the more important things. The look of terror inspired by me, and what will happen if I ever get caught again.
So I keep moving. I keep hunting.
I got control over myself but I don't have a home. Getting what you want isn't the same as getting what you need.
And that sucks.