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I feel like I'm slipping away, back into the person I was before I got here. It's not a bad thing or a good thing, just odd. I don't think I was a bad person before, so it's not all that tragic, but I was a lot more cynical. I'm with it enough to recognize it as a defense mechanism, but I don't quite know how to make it stop.
What makes it particularly difficult not to fall into that old crap is that no one on the mainland thinks I've changed at all, so everyone's got their old expectations of me. That's frustrating. Actually, what's frustrating is that my attitudes and behaviors have shifted slightly, and some people refuse to acknowledge it's happened.
What makes it particularly difficult not to fall into that old crap is that no one on the mainland thinks I've changed at all, so everyone's got their old expectations of me. That's frustrating. Actually, what's frustrating is that my attitudes and behaviors have shifted slightly, and some people refuse to acknowledge it's happened.