Steve
Steve: I've never felt so comfortable saying 'I love you' to someone that I didn't grow up with. But in my own way, I did grow up with you. You say that I'm strong and that I never give up. But what you don't seem to understand is that you give me strength. And staying at the hospital with you was no problem. Like I said before, I'm used to them. I don't like them very much, but you're worth it. You're beautiful and intelligent and witty and funny and strong and I love you very, very much. I'm very thankful that I know you. And you're there for me when you don't even realize it. You're an inspiration. I will always be here for you. And you never make me feel anything but loved. I love you.
I love you. It's nice to say that and mean it whole heartedly. You bring tears to my eyes too, darlin'. But they're good ones, don't worry. And if ANYONE gives you problems, at school or anywhere else, just point them out to me. I'll have them pelted with eclaires before they can say 'wtf?'. 'Cause nobody hurts my best friend and gets away with it. Nuh-uh. You don't mess with the best friend of someone from Jersey. And a lesbian, at that! What the hell are they thinking?!? Oh well. Some days are crappy. It's fated to be so. But I don't care. You know why? Because there are going to be days when a smile won't be able to disappear from our faces. 'Cause we're strong, and beautiful. The world is that canoli, and we're the good, creamy part. I won't let anyone ruin our smiles, if I can help it.
If you ever have a bad day or feel weak, borrow some of my strength. I'm a Jersey-girl, I can spare some. Whenever I have a bad day, I think back on the days that made me smile. Hershey Park with the chorus, when we went on that broken roller-coaster. Your birthday party where I got my first girl-on-girl kiss (and you weren't too bad either!). Talking dirty in biology and NEVER being told to shut up by Ms. Kupsho. Being too dumb to clean a window and have it fall and clunk on my head. Going to that winter dance at your school with you and Trish and Lena (who dances VERY well). Shadowing you at school. Going to Stonewall and nearly making Shane cry (score one for me!). Watching Margerate Cho with you and laughing so hard that I fell off of your bed. Watching Black Tie Nights Erotica with the 'hard floors' and nearly pissing myself. Halloween where I had to half-carry you because of the Shegayla shoes. Letting you do my hair the night of the prom and seeing it poof out to abnormal proportions before looking great. Watching 'Ghetto Brawls' on your birthday. Going through those haunted houses at Country Junction and you leaving me to die because you got freaked out.
Any one of those memories can make me smile and occassionally laugh. You say I make people happy? You do too! You don't give yourself enough credit. I love you, darlin'. Ah great, now I'm tearing up. Damn it. LOL. I loveth thou so much. And now I'm off to take a nap 'cause today was a long day.
Remember the pastries!