hello, it's me. i'v thought about us for a long long time.
so my new years resolution was not to update this damn awful thing. screw it. it also it not to sware so much. i'm going to try for that one.
so lately i feel the way i did when i was a junior in highschool. which is: ancy, fed up, annoyed, bored, hopeful, wanting to flee, basically the feeling of wanting things to move as fast as possible.
i cant wait to get into the nitty gritty parts of school. i love my art classes, i love the challenge and i'm excstatic to be taking nothing but art classes for awhile (i will probably curse myself for saying that later, but i really love the stress of it). In the spring, I will be applying to the graphic design program and i wish it was sooner, right now i feel confident and i feel like i could walk in there and own it but i have 3 months to get nervous unfourtunatly. I'm ancy to be done with school and it's not even half way. I'm ancy to be 21, hell 20. I'm basically overwhelmingly excited about my future and the things i hold in my hands and what i can do with them, it's just the present that's kind of a bummer. I hate this season and i especially hate it when there's no snow, although i did love the thunder storm today. I hate this house right now, because the windows are all closed and taped up and the utilities are annoying and i can't wait for porch season. Really new year comes at a time where you cant help but hope, cause let's be real. January sucks, the weather, no more christmas, back to work/school after a break, you just know shittier weather is coming, fucking valentines is already all over drug stores, it's really lame. also what i think i'm most ancy about, is to meet people. i'm going to throw myself out there more at school and where ever from now on. somewhere, there is a guy who is right or atleast right enough for me to date and be able to stand spending 24 hours with. that's all i want, is someone i can stand to eat breakfast with, run errands with, watch tv with, introduce to my friends, talk by ourselves, and sleep with. at the very least i'll make some good friends, hopefully.
anyway there's my belated thoughts on 2006. i'm ancy and filled with hope. Hopelessly hoping i like to say.
so lately i feel the way i did when i was a junior in highschool. which is: ancy, fed up, annoyed, bored, hopeful, wanting to flee, basically the feeling of wanting things to move as fast as possible.
i cant wait to get into the nitty gritty parts of school. i love my art classes, i love the challenge and i'm excstatic to be taking nothing but art classes for awhile (i will probably curse myself for saying that later, but i really love the stress of it). In the spring, I will be applying to the graphic design program and i wish it was sooner, right now i feel confident and i feel like i could walk in there and own it but i have 3 months to get nervous unfourtunatly. I'm ancy to be done with school and it's not even half way. I'm ancy to be 21, hell 20. I'm basically overwhelmingly excited about my future and the things i hold in my hands and what i can do with them, it's just the present that's kind of a bummer. I hate this season and i especially hate it when there's no snow, although i did love the thunder storm today. I hate this house right now, because the windows are all closed and taped up and the utilities are annoying and i can't wait for porch season. Really new year comes at a time where you cant help but hope, cause let's be real. January sucks, the weather, no more christmas, back to work/school after a break, you just know shittier weather is coming, fucking valentines is already all over drug stores, it's really lame. also what i think i'm most ancy about, is to meet people. i'm going to throw myself out there more at school and where ever from now on. somewhere, there is a guy who is right or atleast right enough for me to date and be able to stand spending 24 hours with. that's all i want, is someone i can stand to eat breakfast with, run errands with, watch tv with, introduce to my friends, talk by ourselves, and sleep with. at the very least i'll make some good friends, hopefully.
anyway there's my belated thoughts on 2006. i'm ancy and filled with hope. Hopelessly hoping i like to say.