disappointment
well, this weekend was quite a letdown. I went to the desert, but my bike wouldnt start, so I sat in the trailer all weekend writing songs. Then, Ciera called and said she couldnt go to prom anymore, because she stole her mom's car and got grounded for it. Man, I just have evrything going for me. Now I feel like an ass, because I told everyone I had a date, and was proud, because I really wanted to go with Ciera, and now Im not going. I also experienced a revalation this weekend. As I sat gazing into the fire, I noticed the grasshoppers were enchanted by the fires eminent glow, but instead of admiring it, they flew into there own doom, as one by one, they jumped into the fire and died. I realized that I am not afraid of dying. I thought the way they died was beautiful, almost as if it was there purpose. Maybe this weekend wasnt so bad. Maybe this god forsaken society has a place for me yet. Who knows...