summer time
so, It's been 9 months of sobriety...it'll be 10 on the 17th. It's amazing how fast the time has gone by and how many people I haven't seen until just these last few weeks. It's great catching up/seeing old faces and seeing friends doing good for themselves. I supposed it's good im getting caught up in doing me....for so long I feel like I was watching everyone else live.
I've been going to groups a lot lately, the fellowship of people is amazing. The pure honesty that is shared in the rooms for one helps me be sober, but I also experience a comfort most don't get to experience...I can share anything I want and the soul purpose of us all being there is to stay sober and help each other. There's no reason to impress, theres no profit to be made, and all of what is said is kept in the rooms.
Aside from that I'm still working at Mark's in Lima, but only for another 2 weeks. I put in my two weeks a couple days ago and I'm planning to make a move out to the city! I've been wanting to do this for awhile, but now after finding myself driving out there 3 times a week it makes sense for me to out there. Plus I'm 20, I want to move out of my house....that place is where I feel at home. I've already replaced my job at the Marks in Lima and transfered to the Mark's on Monroe. I think it'll be cool to deliver out there, I'll know my way around the city real well!
plus, I feel like if I'm out there and I'm in clubs watching music happening more, then more of those thoughts of "wow I can do this..." will help me become more motivated to really become a solid player. I've been playing with a group at Dubland Underground every Tuesday night and I also had a chance to sit in with a group...which was an awesome experience. They had jammed with me once at dubland and asked me to fill in for thier drummer for a gig they had booked at montys crown. I feel like things like that will happen a lot more often if I make the move out there and just really make a name for myself out there.
It excites me, but at the same time I feel like it's so hard to leave...it's been nerve wrecking the last week or so. I guess I have to just trust that everything will work out how it's supposed to. I know it'll be best for both of us in the long run, I'll be happy and not making her feel like she's holding me back...and maybe it'll give her a chance to come into her own as well. The way I put it to her was "we'll have something to talk about!". It's funny, I feel like I talked her through it, but didn't actually take the time to talk myself through it...so here I am ready to move and she's alright with it and I'm a complete wreck. I guess I just have to trust that if this love is as strong as I feel it is, that a little distance won't hurt it a bit. <3
well I'm not sure If I touched everything in this entry, I'll try and keep it up and fill you in with whatever else I might have missed. oh the BBOY BBQ is coming up july 26th, my crew from philly is coming up to do a production. that should be sweet. I'm mad nervous about that as well. well anyway I'll see you all around I'm sure, don't be afraid to say hi!
I've been going to groups a lot lately, the fellowship of people is amazing. The pure honesty that is shared in the rooms for one helps me be sober, but I also experience a comfort most don't get to experience...I can share anything I want and the soul purpose of us all being there is to stay sober and help each other. There's no reason to impress, theres no profit to be made, and all of what is said is kept in the rooms.
Aside from that I'm still working at Mark's in Lima, but only for another 2 weeks. I put in my two weeks a couple days ago and I'm planning to make a move out to the city! I've been wanting to do this for awhile, but now after finding myself driving out there 3 times a week it makes sense for me to out there. Plus I'm 20, I want to move out of my house....that place is where I feel at home. I've already replaced my job at the Marks in Lima and transfered to the Mark's on Monroe. I think it'll be cool to deliver out there, I'll know my way around the city real well!
plus, I feel like if I'm out there and I'm in clubs watching music happening more, then more of those thoughts of "wow I can do this..." will help me become more motivated to really become a solid player. I've been playing with a group at Dubland Underground every Tuesday night and I also had a chance to sit in with a group...which was an awesome experience. They had jammed with me once at dubland and asked me to fill in for thier drummer for a gig they had booked at montys crown. I feel like things like that will happen a lot more often if I make the move out there and just really make a name for myself out there.
It excites me, but at the same time I feel like it's so hard to leave...it's been nerve wrecking the last week or so. I guess I have to just trust that everything will work out how it's supposed to. I know it'll be best for both of us in the long run, I'll be happy and not making her feel like she's holding me back...and maybe it'll give her a chance to come into her own as well. The way I put it to her was "we'll have something to talk about!". It's funny, I feel like I talked her through it, but didn't actually take the time to talk myself through it...so here I am ready to move and she's alright with it and I'm a complete wreck. I guess I just have to trust that if this love is as strong as I feel it is, that a little distance won't hurt it a bit. <3
well I'm not sure If I touched everything in this entry, I'll try and keep it up and fill you in with whatever else I might have missed. oh the BBOY BBQ is coming up july 26th, my crew from philly is coming up to do a production. that should be sweet. I'm mad nervous about that as well. well anyway I'll see you all around I'm sure, don't be afraid to say hi!